Just watched Nada Sou Sou (Tears for You) and tears just flowed. The movie is seriously no tearjerker which I expect from those Korea drama but I am just moved to tears by how closely-related this movie is to me.

The movie tells the story of two non-biological siblings Yota and Kaoru living under the same roof in Okinawa. Yota made a promise to his ailing mother that he would take care of his little sister, Kaoru. He worked hard and struggled to see Kaoru to College. Hmm..I shall not go into details but what left me baffled was the ending of the movie. At the age of 25, Yota passed away due to Myocarditis, the same mysterious acute virus inflammation that killed one of my dearest loved one.

The ending song (Nada Sou Sou) of the movie was even more surreal and I just couldn't control my emotion any longer. It was sang by Rimi Natsukawa and was later sang by Joi Chua. The song partly expressed the inner voice in me. It was only when I saw the English translation of the Japanese lyrics screened at the end of the movie that I finally understood what this whole song was all about.

I whisper gratitude as I flipped through this old photograph album

To one who always cheered me on, within my heart

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

It would return one day

In days when I search for a glimpse of your face, stream of tears flow

Almost a habit now, I wish upon the very first star

Looking within the evening skies for you with all my heart

The memories of that smile of yours that I think of, in sorrow or joy

And if you can see me, from where you are

I’ll live on, believing that someday we’ll reunite

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

In loneliness and yearning - my feelings for you remains

A stream of tears

If only we could meet, if only we could meet

Of how much I missed you

A stream of tears

I thought I can forget about the past and move on with life. I thought it would be damn easy. But after watching this movie, it was like an indication that you are somewhere around although your presence can't be felt. My apologies for being so dramatic and emotional. Perhaps some of you will believe I am too sensitve and immature in some sense cuz there are so many people out there who lost their loved ones every day. But these are just some of my thoughts..since females are emotional beings..loLz.

Recently, my mind is brewing with troubles and my heart is restless *gEez* I took comfort in working in lab cuz at least my mind will stop running wild and work provides me with a temporary anaesthetic to numb all sensation. The other IA students are leaving soon on 18th May, kinda missed them espcially my xiao shifu since he taught me quite a lot. After 18th May, the company will only be left with Jasper and I as IA students until the next batch of new students arrive again.

Finished reading "The Five People you Meet in Heaven". It gave me a glimpse of heaven and how important everyone is in my life. Due to me being impatient and once again displaying my "auntie" qualities, I purchased Mitch Albom's two other titles when I heard from Yi Jia that Popular is offering a 20% off all his titles.

Gonna devour his books soon *squeal in delights*