Temper kinda volatile these few days. Or should I say my temper will be like this until the FYP is over. I do not have much solitude time at home and I go about each day like a rat race..scurrying from the start to the finishing line. At least I live each day knowing there's a purpose behind it but am seriously lethargic with all the brain work and lack of sleep. I snapped at people who irritates me, cursed and muttered F alot of time. Stomach growls and hunger pangs jump sky high by 7pm everyday. Was chasing the bus home one night when a contractor worker blocked my way. Dunno whether he was purposely doing so..he or I too fat to cross the pathway, I just couldn't walked out of his sight. In a very bad and dizzy state, I nearly slapped his face and asked him to FO..but these were just illusionary.

Another incident, was when the bus braked suddenly. Reckless and siaoz bus driver who wanna kill all his passengers on board. Practically everyone flew from their seats and there's this poor gal who sprawled on the floor. My laptop dropped from my hands but I managed to hold tight on the railings. Poor laptop..has to work so hard this semester and yet meet such an irresponsible owner. Better take care of it or else it goes on strike.

Tried listening to RnB and hip hop while doing stuffs at home, but get more irritated with the people singing and chanting slurry raps in it. Can't take in stuffs that talk so switched to mute, ocassional voices and rhythmic beats of trance and lounge. Smooths out my mood..thought of the night of trance featuring Smokin' Jo. Then thought of DJ Skinny, dunno why everytime when I am in a loss or frustrated mood, I would think of her. Is she such a gd meditator? Received warm sms and ocassional call from people around me. Realli encourage me along and sorta revived my soul.

Next week is another battle, am I ready for it? Hope I am~