Weather don't seem good these days. Downcast and heavy downpours make my life miserable. Giving myself excuses like it's raining and I won't go out. I hate being drenched, my feet stinking, my toe nails accumulated with soil or mud and the sight of lightning and the sound of thunder. But rainy days are best to be spent at home, hiding under my blanket and snoozing. Just like the carpenter's song..rainy days and monday always get me down.

Interview and loads of interview..arrgh..completely sick of them. Guess the few months ahead would be talking and service-oriented. I dunno whether I belong to the introvert category but well for the sake of money and to see visible net earnings from my income statement. Life has to go on. Sometimes I do regert on my decision when complications arise and why didn't I do this or that earlier.

Wednesday, shop with mum and dad after like such a long long time. Met two foreigners and both of them wanted to earn points and rebate from mum's membership card. Obviously they were trying to cheat and being scrooges. And as I was helping mum's to make payment at the counter, I declined their request and guess what..they showed super buay song-exasperated faces and kao bei to e max in their native languages. I was super pissed and ranted curses after leaving the counter. Took me some time before I could curb my anger. Oh c'mon, hello..being money-savvy is more than that. If you pout and kao bei when you lost the deal, it isn't my fault and showing some social etiquette is like important?

Went to another shop and was again making payment. This time a young woman approached me and said whether we could join purchases as she was lacked of 30 bucks in order to get the membership card. She offererd to pay extra few bucks to me in return for the join purchase and was rather polite. I agreed and she thanked me profusely.

Had bbq with class ppl at admiralty on friday. Super delicious la and I was touched to bits. The food prepared were special like cajun chicken, bacon with mushroom, stingray etc. Guess it took a long time for them to prepare but ya..the bbq was worth it.

About to complete "The Seventh Day" and find it such a bittersweet fictiotious drama that portrays the romance of young adults. I love the sayings of the cartoonist on love and being separated. Although can't really recall his words but it was true and sweet. Whether it was love between Don and Sasa or Ka Yan and Wing..I had my fair share of laughter and tears. Dad always mentions how silly females can get over romance drama or novels. Despite the fact that such drama or novel are untrue but I just loved them. Watched many korean drama and movie in which promise to be tear-jerker, but none made me grab hold of tissue but this drama..which I started sniffing and gulping back tears. The scenic view of suburb Japan during winter made me wanna book an air ticket to there immediately and Jack the dog is damn cute. Of cuz not forgetting the charm and beauty of Natalie and Niki.

Alright..enuff on my ramblings of drama. Well, what did I do this week? Don't ask me or expect much from me cuz it was rather mundane. But I am simply starting to adore the laid-back and slow paced life of now that I feel kinda lack of interest on wadeva short of activities. There are many things left undone and I ought to move my lazy bum soon but each time I fall asleep thinking both of you..it's Nada Sou Sou period again and I felt so dispirtited and disheartened.

Recently, the Venerable told me the meaning of my dream and of Pure Land. Whatever karma or demerits which I had earned, I am keen to reduce it through good deeds. Through this then I can gain inner peace with myself. Looks like my relatives and family have many businesses with Direct Funeral Services and I sort of know that Buddhism and not Taoism is for me. The spiritual and human existence is just so near yet so far..a barrier that bounds no limits.

Went to job agency and had to go for 2 interviews in one day since friday was hol. Stepped into Raffles Place, the centre of financial hub..rising sun of corporate world..blah blah wadeva ppl call it. Felt so much like a country bumpkin and country mouse. Intimidating people, buildings and streets. So much procedures to do before I can meet the HR or manager. "Please enter via entrance A, turn left to tower B and level 2 and made exit at exit B..etc". High heels killed my soles and feet and I travelled like from north to central and west.

Had an interview at Euler Hermes..(thght it was a person's name) only to find out that it's a part of the Allianz Group. Had a chat with the Jap Regional Manager and he's dashing. "Would you mind being my personal asst?" Wahaha..u say leh? He looks like Ken Hirai + Nakata Hidetoshi to e max. Then had dinner at Fishermen Wharf at CQ before lying flat on sofa with rotten and swelled feet that day.

Ojiisan Passed Away Peacefully

May You Rest in Peace

What did I do last week..actually also nothing much. Just slack and watch the time and days go by.

Monday: Called the HR office early in the morning..no answer. Tried my luck again in the afternoon..no luck either. She must be on leave so I sms her instead. Met yingjie at causeway point and settled at the delifrance outlet for a hearty chat. She told me her working life at sushi tei and couldn't believe my eyes that her supervisor had the same name as mine during IA. Are all women with that name a tyrant? I hope not but just mention this name and it would send chill down my spines. Celebrated shin's bday at pizza hut and ate alot.

Tuesday: Gave SQ her goggles then did enrolment at bukit batok. Rained half-way on my way there and seeked shelter at the nearby bus-stop. Was drizzling after few minutes so ran there. Was kinda drenched and shivering from the air-con. Can't be bothered and did some administration stuffs for the enrolment. Took a bus to town and was raining cats and dogs again. Bought an umbrella and stopped outside the MRT. One young ****** boy opened his darn umbrella right on my face when he should open it when there's no crowd. People around me were shocked by his dumb gesture and I was drenched as a result. Would not reveal his race anyway. Fancy being soaked in rain when you had an umbrella. Took a short train ride and went to Kelly services.

Wednesday: nuah at home and watched the sky turned darker

Thursday: No news from the HR yet. Called her office and stuttered. Was shocked cuz her phone didn't rang at all and she picked up immediately. She was quite friendly and told me to send my resume. Received an email from her and from her words can tell that she's reluctant to employ me as I could only work until July if my application went well. Met bro in the evening for dinner at vivo. Had a chat outdoors..as the cold wind breeze blew and as we looked towards sentosa, time seemed to freeze for a second. Met hanjuan at her working place and went to ka chiao her a little. On our way home, bro mentioned driving the route from pasir panjang to west coast highway with someone. Kind of nostalgia for both of us and my mind started on wild thoughts. Emo hell lots that day but when I saw a large moth in the kitchen, my heart was warmed.

Friday: Log in to school network to see my results. A bit unhappy and dissatisfied but kinda expected since CPTC affected lots. Met with SQ and JX for lunch then three of us were like aunties to stroll around the food fair at suntec convention. Bought some office wear which I dunno when then I could wear?

Saturday: Went to town again..this time alone. Sms yijia and we had dinner at the cathay building with her bf. Ate tonnes and my stomach was so full that I nearly unzipped my pants. Went past an errie buidling near NUS law school..a classical hauted house at the botanical gardens.

Sunday: nuah again and contemplated how long should I wait for the HR reply before I go to another agency. If she wasn't a close friend of dad, I guessed I wouldn't have waited so long. Desperate time calls for desperate actions.

Some piccies from the cruise on Superstar Virgo. A memorable class trip although my stomach gave way sometimes and protested. Enjoyable and I loved having breakfast with the sea view.

Life just gets tougher when I get older. Being paranoid and stressed out over trivial matters are just part of my characteristics, but reality just forces more hurdles to which I got to accomplished. While I always believe that life ain't no perfect roses, but I just couldn't start being envious of how the lives of people around me get better. SQ said that being envious is a sin and hurdles are just challenges. And that someone would have thrash me and lecture me non-stop if he/she saw me in such a state. But since that someone dissapears from my life like after dunno few months, I couldn't be bothered anymore. Dumb would be dumb..smart would be smart. Such generalisation is hurtful but non-deniable in certain situations.

Saw the news headline today ( Poly grads put squeeze on university places..tough year to get in..over half of this year's batch of 21,000 want to go uni..overwhelming demand for hot course..early indication that some courses such as biz and acc ..in great demand..will be harder to get in without good grades) all from the straits times. The fact that it was making headline over the Mas Selemat case..ya, you can just guess it.

Challenges for job and uni application is taking a toil on me..and the pressure from parents are just overwhelming. Yes..challenges make one stronger..but is just simple utter chui-ness. My brain is working on new back-up plans to counter-attack such scenarios, who asked me to be borned in the year of dragon. I abhor rejection and disappointment, am bored and impatient to e max of waiting for news from HR and agency, am sort of cash. Tonnes of complaints from a person like me. Maybe I should place an ad on mocca.com about my application "so please employ/accept me". lol~

Although being ps by people felt realli darn sore and irritated but it couldn't be helped since my right eye was twitching like a mad eye for the whole week. TV shows are lacking of excitement and originality these days. Had to resort to VCD dramas to pacify a TV junk like me. Borrowed two TVB drama from friends..The Seventh Day and World Twister Adventure. Both starring my dearest Niki Chow and Charmaine Sheh respectively. And Kevin looks ever so stunning in his role as well.

Went to new asia bar and my ears felt so presurrized when the lift zoomed to 70th floor. Had a deep breathe and a gulp before my ears popped. Was rather paranoid that evening in fear that I would be ps but things turned out fine. Both of them ordered pink cadilac and equinox blue and I got a stanford tower. The view up 70th floor was stunning, the streets a twinkling neon yellow and the black sky painted with sprays of red paint. Pink cadilac tasted like sea water and SQ squirmed in disgust when she sipped her equinox blue which she claimed contained 40% vodka and the 60% of rubbish blue syrup stuff.

Phew~mine turned out to be fine and the starwberry puree magarita freeze tasted average. Nice place to chill out. The bar started playing lounge music with a touch of lazy slow jazz then proceeded to some trance techno jazz..which amazingly transformed to retro. By around 11plus, the speakers started blasting some party club music and everything was getting kinda high with some ang moh doing weird moves and I spotted a SPG which I learned was (Sarong Party Gal). SQ felt seriously nuah there and yesh babe..you are a clubber and definetly not a bar-goer. lol~ New asia bar scored high in its ambience and relaxing mood but scored disastrously in its drinks. Oh gosh, the price of drinks and food are ex. Next stop that I wished to chill out and unwind would be most probably Loof, thumper and Indochine.

Took a cab down to YX's frens KTV night at Chevron. SQ finally woke up when it was her turn to mixed whisky with sprite. Tasted awful perhaps cuz it was of inferior quality and I am not a jiu gui unlike someone. Kena sabo to sang duet for 选择 but overall was a good night out.

To go out and have fun is relaxing but it requires money and in order to invest and indulge in such lifestyle requires a steady supply of cashflow. Furthermore, most of my pals are job-hunting and it is high time to move my butt and do so too.