Life just gets tougher when I get older. Being paranoid and stressed out over trivial matters are just part of my characteristics, but reality just forces more hurdles to which I got to accomplished. While I always believe that life ain't no perfect roses, but I just couldn't start being envious of how the lives of people around me get better. SQ said that being envious is a sin and hurdles are just challenges. And that someone would have thrash me and lecture me non-stop if he/she saw me in such a state. But since that someone dissapears from my life like after dunno few months, I couldn't be bothered anymore. Dumb would be dumb..smart would be smart. Such generalisation is hurtful but non-deniable in certain situations.

Saw the news headline today ( Poly grads put squeeze on university places..tough year to get in..over half of this year's batch of 21,000 want to go uni..overwhelming demand for hot course..early indication that some courses such as biz and acc ..in great demand..will be harder to get in without good grades) all from the straits times. The fact that it was making headline over the Mas Selemat case..ya, you can just guess it.

Challenges for job and uni application is taking a toil on me..and the pressure from parents are just overwhelming. Yes..challenges make one stronger..but is just simple utter chui-ness. My brain is working on new back-up plans to counter-attack such scenarios, who asked me to be borned in the year of dragon. I abhor rejection and disappointment, am bored and impatient to e max of waiting for news from HR and agency, am sort of cash. Tonnes of complaints from a person like me. Maybe I should place an ad on mocca.com about my application "so please employ/accept me". lol~