Had a f*ed up week and I was like a lost soul who didn't know what I was doing at times. Sometimes when I opened the main building door and was greeted by a bustling lunch time crowd, the fiery sun proved too dazzling for my eyes. The thought of retreating was tempting but I proceeded forward cuz the route backwards ain't so bright and worth looking back into. I realised that I have been too stubborn for a long time and lingered on broken hopes when there may be greener pastures ahead. Many people don't really understand me and they don't understand me perhaps cuz I failed to open up more. But there are some whom can sense it although I am not someone to tell them directly.

Nearly screwed my boss's business call early this week and I couldn't concentrate on my work. It was a painful process but dad always told me not to bring your worries to workplace and to other innocent people. So I tolerated and tried to filtered my moods. Then calls came on the eve of labour day. Had to hide in the toilet to chat cuz my table is at the prominent recept counter. Thanks to Jas and SQ mama, although had to entertain your calls with the backdrop of flushing toilet but at least you cared. And also..I felt much better after chatting with class people (you know who u are) on msn.

Although it was just a trivial matter but it subconsiously disturbed me for some unknown reasons. Then I saw a praying mantis and had a weird dream. I would fight for my dreams and in the process I may not be the person whom I previously was..it's also impossible for anyone's character to remain as sweet and angelic as before. There are principles in life to adhere to but I wouldn't possibly give up cuz I can no longer lost any more years of my youth and I don't want to dissapoint you again. Have made reservation for mother's day dinner and don't blame me if I am stingy and unsociable this month. Cuz I'm trying to save up. muahaha~ hope I can say tada, kimi wo aishiteru one day.