My first post for 2009 haha. Most people have resolution and new fresh plans for this year, but I am just gonna say it's just another year gone by. Everything is still the same, the world we are living in, the places we frequent. Things don't change when the last digit of the 4 numerals changes, things change constantly. The moment you close your eyes and await the next morning, there are so many changes around this planet. How many people dying of hunger, crimes, disaster be it big or small, birth etc while you are sleeping. I used to hate changes in my life especially sad ones or sudden shocking ones, but it is undeniably true that changes are happening to us faster than we ever notice..faster than the melting of ice caps but slower than the bullet train.
Perhaps I have been escaping from few things that struck me some 2 years back. I choose not to say them and do not have the courage to face these few things that blotch my past. Sound as if it's very scary eh..although it's nothing serious too. The past is always with us and it's time I stop running..just like that of archaeological digs. I was torn apart between choosing to pretend as what my relatives and parents told me to do so and talking to myself late at night as if a muse will hear me. Nonetheless, I will find the courage and as for you, I am happy that you are happy cuz I ain't good in the past. I still feel a slight tinge of melancholy when I see people having those sweet memories that I used to have but perhaps this feeling will subside when I grow to love myself and others more..and be a better mother in the future.
School is starting and ciao to all the fun and fantasy I had for 1 month. It has been a nice week..cycling, blading, watching movies, dinner and new year wishes from friends. The food at din tai fung was good and we watched Little Nyonya at Jas's house. It feels good to have nice friends whom you feel comfy with. As usual of an egoistic and thriving to shine Leo native, I want to work harder this year. Although people say I don't behave like a Leo but the Leo genes are in my blood somehow lol~ No more laziness but work and play smart.
Perhaps I have been escaping from few things that struck me some 2 years back. I choose not to say them and do not have the courage to face these few things that blotch my past. Sound as if it's very scary eh..although it's nothing serious too. The past is always with us and it's time I stop running..just like that of archaeological digs. I was torn apart between choosing to pretend as what my relatives and parents told me to do so and talking to myself late at night as if a muse will hear me. Nonetheless, I will find the courage and as for you, I am happy that you are happy cuz I ain't good in the past. I still feel a slight tinge of melancholy when I see people having those sweet memories that I used to have but perhaps this feeling will subside when I grow to love myself and others more..and be a better mother in the future.
School is starting and ciao to all the fun and fantasy I had for 1 month. It has been a nice week..cycling, blading, watching movies, dinner and new year wishes from friends. The food at din tai fung was good and we watched Little Nyonya at Jas's house. It feels good to have nice friends whom you feel comfy with. As usual of an egoistic and thriving to shine Leo native, I want to work harder this year. Although people say I don't behave like a Leo but the Leo genes are in my blood somehow lol~ No more laziness but work and play smart.
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