Things are not going smoothly these days and I feel myself being entrapped in a never-ending maze. No matter how hard I have tried or thought I have tried, the outcomes are just disappointing.

I wish he or they could have understand more, but it seems that it does not matter now. It is sometimes just too daunting clarifying or explaining yourself while the other parties are just clueless or in doubts. The worst is when you burst into a fitful anger and only later realize that you are the greatest sufferer of your own negative mood.

I guess everyone has their own definitions of "dreadful" experience, but there are basically two clear options. Sit at one corner and continue moaning or pick yourself up (no matter how bad in shape you are) and adapt or change. Because the ultimate controller of my life is none other than myself.

Not sure whether you are aware of Charlie Chaplin's instrumental soundtrack for the 1936 movie - Modern Times, which was later rewrote with lyrics for the song title "Smile". Smile was then later used as a tribute song to Michael Jackson. The song strikes a chord with me in terms of similar sentiments towards life and gives me motivation to smile even when I am so tired. "Smile even though your heart is aching. If you smile through your pain and sorrow, smile and maybe tomorrow you will see the sun come shining through. Light up your face with gladness..you will find that life is worthwhile."

I miss HK so much and have the urge to return to my school campus where I am greeted with the nature every morning and the cooling breeze at night. If people say nature is the best medicine for healing purposes, I will definitely agree.

Although it was just a mere few months of residing at the dormitory of New Asia college, this video brings back much fond memories.




" 暮春三月，是花開的季節，是離別的季節。每年到了這些天，同學披上畢業袍、拋起四方帽，一面迎向未知的未來，卻又難忘在此間度過的幾個寒暑，難捨那曾經以為不老的青春。

成長總有起伏，離別何必感傷，這麼美好的校園，如此美好的時光，在花開花落之間，在各奔前程以前，讓我們珍惜還能一起切磋思想，砥礪人生的機會，多聽幾場精采的演講，讓我 們為中大，唸一首詩，寫一幅字，拍一張照片，紀念這段青蔥歲月。"

只缘身在此山中
有时我梦见校园
那些思想的盛宴
那些载满回忆的角落
那些穿梭山上山下的岁月
奔向未来之前
珍重、珍惜
美好的时光

Because I myself am in the mountains
Sometimes I dream of the campus
Those "feast" of ideas
Those campus corners that are loaded with memories
Those years of shuttling up and down the mountains
Before embarking on my future
Treasure and cherish..
Good times here

A hectic recess week has just gone by. Wait a minute..did I call it a recess week? I think I have been traveling to school almost every day and the only benefit I ever get is that I get to sleep slightly later than my usual morning class. I thought I could catch a few movies or so, but it turns out that I only manage to watch one. Oh well, better than none.

What has society turned us to? A bunch of cold blooded animals? Caring for our own turfs as part of the survivor's game. It is sad to see such sights and plights. Some friends posted this quote on fb, "Those who are heartless once cared too much." On the surface, it may seem almost agreeable that people get hurt in the process when the other party does not reciprocate. But is that what we really want? To act on reciprocity as part of the capitalistic society? Should we stop caring when the other party does not receive it too well..or should we be compassionate and understand that everyone also wants be happier than where they are now? Perhaps a line can be drawn between when a person should selflessly help or care someone and when to be aware that you are not being used or treated as a fool.

Money can buy us happiness. Money is not the root to all evil. But we need to understand that money will never be sufficient or a measurable to happiness if we are constantly unsatisfied with where we are now. How I yearn for a day where I can just simply go on backpack trips and discover the real purpose of life without the "mind pollution" that I faced. But on a more realistic goal, to learn from the wise or Venerable ones.

It is the end of the first week of school. Many more readings to catch up on as compare to other semester as I am taking up the more intensive thinking courses. Other than that, using some of my free time searching for jobs through my school portal and looking up for career talks session. Feel so much like procrastinating but the gloomy economic outlook does not signal anything positive either.

Is finding someone who has a sincere heart that makes you feel secure that difficult? While you are the over-achieving one who has many aspiring plans in life and at overseas, I just want someone who leads a simple and less over-complicated life.

My friend posted this MV quite some ago on FB and I really think it is a well created MV that connects well with the song and lyrics. Liang Wen Yin's I am not that courageous as you think. 梁文音 (我不是你想像那么勇敢). Click to watch.


In a life's journey, we will sometimes lose part of ourselves or an object along the way. If I had lost courage and strong will in life, can I find it at the Lost and Found information counter?

听了田馥甄所唱的歌，心里有好多感触。过了那么多年，我最终还是真心真意要你过得幸福。所有错误从我这里落幕，而我会把与你度过的每一片美好回忆永恒惦记在心里。谢谢你让我感受到被爱的甜蜜滋味，谢谢你爱过了我。

Watched this animated dvd movie that comes free from a magazine subscription. It brings me closer to Buddha and his life story. An inspiring story of one of the greatest teachers in history which is filled with compassion and wisdom. The Buddha, directed by Krismant Wattananarong.

My final holiday break is about to end soon. It will be my last long holiday before entering the workforce.

Spent the last day of 2011 with my godsis and her family. Playing with her 2-years old daughter made me so happy and I just wanted to provide her with everything within my means. It also made me ponder on whether I will want to start a family and take up the responsibilities of being a mother and a wife. After dinner near Chomp Chomp area, I headed for countdown with a bottle of white wine and great view overlooking the harbor.

Sometimes, I think I am too much of a freedom-seeker that I detest being tied down by anyone. I want to do things and explore places without informing anybody and at my own free will. I guess nobody can ever pull the reins over me and if he or she is able to do so one day, this person must have captured my heart. So, the question is whether over the years to come, I will want to step into a relationship?

At times, even I myself am afraid of who I am. Not that there is any existence of DID, but when I choose to seek freedom or independence, I will want to be isolated from the rest and choose to disappear from the stifling crowd.

Over the previous year, I did stuffs that I previously had no courage of doing. While there are usual up-and-down, every year is a time to learn and gain new experiences and knowledge. For this year, I set aside resolutions as I take the bolder step to transition from a student to being a potential OL.

Study and Career
Financial Planning
Family, Friends and Loved Ones
Tone my body (Achieving toned arms)
Being Closer with my Religion

Nom nom mum mum..eating my bowl of strawberries



Tech-savvy! Touch screen to the max. Future career women in the making.

Recuperating from the wound of my wisdom teeth. Many plans were stalled and time was mostly spent on the bed. The first day was the most terrible as I had a bout of vomiting spell after consuming the medicine. It was a grossly mess and drinking water was another task. But things improved and the wound is healing. With one more teeth in a risky position, the dentist refused to extract it and I am left with the option of seeking more professional opinion.

My HK group mate and buddy has returned to HK and is asking me to visit his country soon. Looks like I will be having a tour guide to introduce me to more good food and shopping deals when I returned. It was quite a "cross-cultural" experience for my project as this time, we had group mates from Spain, Germany and HK. The Europeans complained that local food is too oily and consist of little raw vegetables (they like salad) and the HK complained about the long waiting interval for trains and smaller portion of local food.

With the recent triple breakdowns of our local transportation - the railway, it has invited the public intervention of the Committee of Inquiry which has only conducted two public questionings so far.

Social media has mainly painted a negative picture of it and there is huge public pressure for its Chief Executive to step down. It is appalling to realize shoddy routine checks of the railway surfacing and feeble attempts of service recovery prior to the second breakdown..of which was later greatly rectified. If we take a look at PA system of railways in HK, they are announced in Cantonese, Chinese and English and staffs are stationed adequately to facilitate even minor problems such as in my case, unable to locate the control station and accumulating enough railway reward points for a free single-journey to Disneyland.

While it is quite first-dimensional to blame the highest person in position for such serious disruptions, I believe what the transport analysts had said is right - to learn from operators in other cities (rather than continue pointing fingers). A public transport that has so many stakeholders involved requires good management style, empowered employers and org communication that efficiently facilitates its structure. Of course, I will want all repair works to be done faster haha (although the technicians and engineers have to work even harder..salute them) so that my traveling plans will be least affected.