A disastrous and disappointing NAPFA attempt and that I guess would be my last attempt I ever took. Months without exercise but sitting on the chair to discuss on my FYP and great..stamina and strength went downhill and gaining extra weight. My physical stamina is not good to start with and so there went my NAPFA. Started with the sit and reach and tore my thigh muscle in a strenous but futile attempt to reach the target. Next came the great 2.4km run and couldn't run much as my muscle was giving way and I felt wobbly on my legs. Everyone was rushing to complete the race but I was like lagging behind. And soon due to my lack of determination, I was jogging and walking through out the 2.4km. Flunked 2 stations and suffered two days of leg cramps and aches.

Dun care le..I want to be fit fit. Shall exercise and go gym if possible more often. Muahaha~ Had a stomach cramp on thusrday. Pain like hell..until couldn't even walked and was sweating profusely. Flagged a cab home and took some rest. But the excruciating pain wouldn't go off and I was getting nauseous. Crawled to the nearest clinic (sounds kinda dramatic) and doc presribed me an awful lot of pills. Said dunno what gastric flu and heartburn stuffs. Unfit and unhealthy to the max.

Further studies options..looks like I am going the lonely path. It is me and my courage and determination to pursue my dreams. Not exactly a dream but rather an option which I could only take and not blame myself repeatedly.

In a couple of weeks, we will soon be bidding farewell. Kinda unbelieveable and saddening in my opinion. How I wish I could live these 3 years to its fullest and not regret it. But I guess well, everyone grew up in these years. Things that had happened couldn't be undone and setbacks made us stronger. Was kena persuaded by Mr Wong to participate in the graduation video interview. Wished I hadn't agreeed to it cuz I find myself extremey horrendous and fidgetty in tat video. What would happen when this video is to be showcased on the ceremony? I am sure to hide myself in a paper bag. Lol~

CNY is near the corner but I dun see the urge and desire to celebrate it. What is there to celebrate when you are not even around? It would never be the same again. Yeah..being EMO lots again. But that's god fate anyway and I always believe in gaining through losing.