Well, it's the festive season of Christmas this week and other than the serious plunge in blood pressure which left me nauseous and dizzy, I had quite a pleasant day with family and friends. The only thing lacking is a nice bottle of champagne or wine. I ordered a cookie and cream log cake from Angie The Choice - my all time childhood favourite confectionery selling one of the best cakes with fresh ingredients and fresh cream. My family had dinner at Jack's Place and although it cost a bomb, the food was awesome and the service was better than I had expected.

Oh no, school is starting and a new year is starting soon. 2009 had been a messy year of unplanned surprises, sadness, joy and experience. Right now, I do believe that my life is 30% similar to the plot of Korean drama. I am so caught in some entanglements that sometimes I do wonder whether I am thinking seriously...too MUCH for my own good. But I guess such drama will subside soon and my life will just be a plain boring tale to be retold.

I have been muti-reading few good books at one time during this short break. And I am damn happy that "The Desiderata of Happiness" by Max Ehrmann which I ordered through Amazon arrived on the eve of Christmas. So this book of short poems has added to my list of books which include:

1. Andrew Matthews, Follow Your Heart
2. Anthony Robbins, Awaken The Giant Within

Also, if I have the time during the next break, Allan Pease's book on communication and body language is a good read too.

I did some exercise lately and unfortunately, the weather was too cloudy in Dec to have my skin exposed to sunlight. I need sunlight or else my skin will be whiter than Edward Cullen..which is so OMG!

Other than running/jogging, I find thrill in things with wheels like blading, cycling or even skating! Is like after not exercising for so long, my body just feel hyper good from endorphin, sweating and heart pumping. Sadly, my dad secretly gave away my Raleigh bike (which I am kinda pissed) and forbids me from getting even a budgeted Alleoca bicycle due to space constraints.

A Prayer by Max Ehrmann

Let me do my work each day;

and if the darkened hours

of despair overcome me, may I

not forget the strength

that comforted me in the

desolation of other times.

May I still remember the bright

hours that found me walking

over the silent hills of my

childhood, or dreaming on the

margin of a quiet river,

when a light glowed within me,

and I promised my early God

to have courage amid the

tempests of the changing years.

Spare me from bitterness

and from the sharp passions of

unguarded moments. May

I not forget that poverty and

riches are of the spirit.

Though the world knows me not,

may my thoughts and actions

be such as shall keep me friendly

with myself.

Lift up my eyes

from the earth, and let me not

forget the uses of the stars.

Forbid that I should judge others

lest I condemn myself.

Let me not follow the clamor of

the world, but walk calmly

in my path.

Give me a few friends

who will love me for what

I am; and keep ever burning

before my vagrant steps

the kindly light of hope.

And though age and infirmity

overtake me, and I come not within

sight of the castle of my dreams,

teach me still to be thankful

for life, and for time's olden

memories that are good and

sweet; and may the evening's

twilight find me gentle still.

Such an old song, but with so much emotion. The sentiments expressed in the lyrics isn't what I am feeling now just that I love how it is sang. If you have watched April's Bride (余命1ヶ月の花嫁), I guess you known what I have meant. Enjoy~

The Rose - LeAnn Rhimes

Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
And you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love
In the spring
Becomes the rose

Fruit Tarts from Fruit Paradise. I love the creamy texture and crunchy pie.

Evening sunset from my house

Sky scrappers from the windows of Dallas Cafe

Hoho, it's the the festive season again! I love Christmas. Anyway, after a long hiatus from blogging, does anybody miss me? Seriously, I do think of closing this blog anyway.

Recently, I have experienced so much ups and downs in life. In the surface, I may look gullible and innocent (which I hate it) or maybe I am a good actress. Like E. Goffman had mentioned as an analogy of our everyday life to the theatrical, we manage our social performance to provide others with certain desired and perceived impression of ourselves. So if you really understand who I am, you could have peeled the mask from my face.

I think the only thing that can calm my nerves is the effect of wine. Hopefully, I can master the techniques of wine tasting when I am older and RICHER!

Since the middle of this week, I have been meeting up with friends, chilled near the pier while enjoying a glass of champagn (so shiok) and visited my godsis's baby daughter. She's so cute..alright, I confess that I am not a baby lover. But my impression totally change when I touch her baby. So fragile and delicate. Just like an angel from heaven. When I touched her tiny hands, my heart just melted and I just wanted to shower her with all the love and care I could ever provide.

I watched the New Moon saga. Oh gosh, I am like an immature teenage girl who goes gaga over cute hunky guys. The movie plot wasn't one of the best, in fact the book is better. And I still have not read it yet. I heart Edward and Jacob. It does not make any sense to fancy a vampire and werewolf, but fantasy does bring you to another stress-free gateway.

Also, I am so falling in love with Sarah Brightman's latest album - Amalfi. A fusion of genre including classic, new pop and soprano.

Finally, I just want to share with you this wonderful video. Together does make a difference.

It is time to start the engine and groove to the pace in school. Sometimes I doubt my competency level and get really tired and sick of everything. I wonder why I can't live my life happily or is it because my lacklustre life is missing that something exciting? Haha but in anyway, these are just some random thoughts. With more friends by my side, I think I would still be all warm and comfortable.

I was comforted when I received your call. Such exhilaration that could not be explained simply in words. Perhaps I really need an ego booster now at my deflated moment. LOL!!

And..oh no, at this state I think I am going to be a himono onna aka dried fish woman like Amemiya in Hotaru no Hikari. Will not be updating much until the inner storm has abated.

Well, in the blink of an eye and school has started. I did enjoy my summer holiday and those fun things I did. The times I spent with my friends and loved ones. Being more observant of my surrounding which I was oblivious previously. Seeking inner answers of myself and the life that I want to construct. Learned new skills, did my CSP, read up books, watch movies and drama and spend time soaking/basking in the beauty of nature.

I love abstract art, films and objects because each time when you view them there seems to be a different answer. Especially when contemporary materials is infused with vintage works. Black has always been one of my favourite colours. However, things happened recently and black is portrayed in another perspective and shade of light.

Things happened for a reason and consequences follow causes. Happiness can be achieved if I strive hard for it without losing my bearings on the way..no conclusion or answer. The post shall end here.

Was clearing my inbox when I came across this email from one of my prof during last semester. It was a long email message but of great words of wisdom to ponder on continuously in my life to come.

Adversus solem ne loquitor - Don't speak against the sun / Don't waste your time arguing the obvious.

There is a short passage from The Desiderata of Happiness by Max Ehrmann. I believe that regardless of religion, the faith of life is still shared among us.

Click to enlarge.

Time does fly fast when life gets enjoyable and stress-free. School is starting soon and there are some kind of unexplained mixed feelings. Like what kind of weapons and armors should I prepare? Stainless steel, bullet proof and health potion sound good. Lately, I have been thinking a lot and being superstitious cuz I do not want history to repeat itself. And this history was my period of "Great Depression". But I am glad to say that I have overcome a regret. I no longer live in that world and I think the future does not welcome this tinge of sweet playback at all.

Some photos to share of a balloon sculpting and fund raising project which I volunteered few months back. Overall, it is a good learning experience and an enjoyable one.

The "Jo-is-gonna-puke" peacock during training sessions at Changi

The masterpiece after an overnight stay over at the freaking warm shopping mall

The display during finale event after much tremor

The tree that kids pull when they descend the escalator

The friendly snake with a gentle hiss

The monkey that I wish to bring home. Yummy banana~

Gigantic giraffe and chivalrous horse

Closeup of the white horse

Many aunties Lucy steal them even when we place the "Do Not Touch" sign..LOL

Finally, gifts from all my dearest friends for my early birthday celebration. Thanks!

Wondering what to get me as my present? Ya..I know I am kind of thick skin and you may have something up your sleeves to surprise me with LOL~. However, this just serves as some ideas that you can explore more on. Or maybe nobody is reading this and I could use this as a reference to pamper myself in the future. Tag @ chatbox if you are buying any items to avoid clashes.

A mini cooper series. Yes, the color red is one of my favorite of this series. I know is bullshit talk here la haha. But a model MINI would be fine too..really!

Books: The Definitive Guide to Business Finance, The Intelligent Investor, Martin Zweig's Winning on Wall Street and Stephanie Meyer's Twilight Series of 3 Books.

Music/Soundtracks: Andrew Lloyd Webber's 60 Collection and David Foster & Friends.

Floral by Gucci.

Click on the links:

Bethesda Care
En Community Services Society
Christalite Methodist Home

Lastly, please support the project I am working at now. A kind donation and voluntary assistance can help the underprivileged, weak and destitute. While we constantly crave and desire for luxury items, these children, youths, adults and elderlys just hope for basic necessities in life.

I know this sound kind of cliche and a self-promotion event, but yes the greatest gift of life is to provide help and support to the less fortunate people out there when we still have the financial means. There are so many charity organizations and these are just the few. A greatest thanks and sincere appreciation from me.

"They" rock my life and are quite generous too. Awesome-ness!
Bidding is peaceful at last..just for now.
Screw those paranoid people.

Time does fly. It's my 100th post! As much as I would like to express my inner thoughts and feelings inside this blog, but lack of privacy is still the main thing, I do not find the idea of baring my soul and making some rude comments that amusing after all. Look at how much trouble bloggers have landed themselves in when the public expose their "dirty laundry" to all. So here..in my blog will just be chrolonogical events that only some will read.

Well, this week was quite hectic and fun. Even how much I go out, my mother will still chase me out of the house. Her reason being " get some sunlight" rather than "rotting". Sometimes I try to justify my rotting but often I just look at her with an evil smile. How contradicting it can get when school starts and she starts telling me to rest or else I will die of fatigue one day. So tell me where should I be now eh?

Being traveling..well, literally from the west to east for trainings. Is good to have a transport concession. Most of the time I disguise as a year one freshie and bond with them. Some of them are really smart..like they are scholar, doing double degree and from prestige JCs. Ask them why they choose this school and they will provide you with plenty of interesting answers.

Like one mountain is higher than another mountain..is good to upgrade oneself with new knowledge and value-added skills.

Mid this week, I was totally mad at myself and those kiasu people. Spoiling the market trend and causing great inflation. I yelled and cursed but in the end I think things always don't go as smoothly as you would want to. So ya..just treat it as a practice and gain experience.

Had a poly gathering cum celebration at Kai Wen's 21st birthday bbq party. Nice food..cool ambiance and most importantly great hospitality. I said something which I ought not to express so wrongly and I got pissed over some issues. But great thing was that I managed to curb my fiery temper. Yet another episode of me not using my brain before speaking. Can I be less bimbotic? Tsk..must improve on this aspect of social skills. Witty and conducive discussion ya LOL~

And through the media, the news that Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett had passed away brought tears to many people including shocked fans from around the world.

Perhaps MJ would be in a place called Heaven which is better than Neverland..heal the world, make it a better place. Thanks for all the nice songs you have created and the Moonwalk. And Farrah would be reuniting with Charlie as one of the angels in Heaven.

On the very next day, my dear hamster passed away too. I suspect it was cardiac arrest that took his life. Being a staunch animal protectionist, it sort of tore my heart but at least he was not put to sleep. Is just old aged. With the recent big hoo-ha over the dog call Pom Pom who is abandoned by her owner and thrown into a bin, what can I say?

Just some horrifying but amusing entertainment news..which I will not comment on. I admire her flair for flowery words. Or maybe she is in a cloak impersonating Hermione Granger? Click here

The long break has allowed me to ponder on myself. Of the things that I have done, mistakes that I have committed and things that I have experienced. I think life is a double-sided coin. There is bound to be gains and losses. While we embrace gains in life, how well do we react to losses? Situations where we fall into deep trenches. Do I swear of ill-luck, blame it on others, see it as god's punishment on me, curse of unfairness or accept it with poise and dignity? While I have something in life, I may have lost something. Of friends who will never ever able to be as acquainted with me as before, of things that have disappeared, of memories that have faded. I still regret it.

People always mention about moving on with life, to charge forward and that time will heal all wounds. But I guess it is never easy. I think I deem myself as successful when I can move on with life still remembering of the flaws, but not shunning/grimacing and instead smiling at it.

I have witnessed some of the oversea voluntary projects that my friends are executing. Some nights before I sleep with a full stomach, I wondered how many kids out there in the third world are suffering from hunger? Of the amount of food that I ate which could have make them happy and sleeping soundly. Johnny Depp mentioned that "Money doesn't buy you happiness. But it buys you a big enough yatch to sail right up to it." How far do you agree on it?

Have watched (rented) some great movies so far.


The Pursuit of Happyness - Was recommended by an enterpeneur-aspiring friend who attended Chris Gardner's seminar. A father's love for his son could achieve so much!


Twilight - A romantic vampire tale for female like me LOL~ Robert Pattinson (Edward Cullen) is hot. His eyes ever so penetrating and bright. I think I am better off reading the novel instead. Fancy a blood-sucking moment from Cullen?


The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - Again, Brad Pitt portrays a brilliant role as the dear old Benjamin. I felt so sad when Ben was unable to be together with Daisy. How is it like to be born as an 80 year old man and died as an infant..memories fading as you grow younger and slowly curling up as a baby on your deathbed? I think the OST by Alexandre Desplat is impressive too.



Changeling - A true story starring Angelina Jolie as the grief-stricken Christine Collin who lost her child, Walter. Blame it on the corrupted police force and the sadist who murdered young children. Christine never found her boy but was innocently deemed as psychopathic and locked up in the hospital before a trial was set.

It makes me think of it as almost similar as Sally Clark's trial where she was wrongly accused of murdering her child. This case was discussed during one of my lesson. Meadow's statistically independence theory of the 1 in 73 millions and how the Bayes' Theorem proved otherwise. And in the end...Clark was released in 2007 but was unable to recover from the aftershock of imprisonment. If you are interested and as boring as me, read on: Click Here

Sorry that I bored you with my countless rantings. On randomness, I am still waiting for them to reply. I am so impatient at this moment..I feel so unfulfilled.

Had a nice dinner treat at Sushi Tei yesterday with YJ, HJ, QY, KW, YC, JP & Jas. Is a long time since all of us gathered together to have a meal and chat, but yes the fun is still there. Shop around and the gals had Mac ice cream after that. I could not eat..how sad it is. Then most of them head home/work while the remaining few of us headed to St James for partying time. Waited at the entrance for almost an hour before the bouncer let us in.

R&B to the max and could not get high enough for the correct beat as equivalent to trance. Music at Boiler room was good with the live band gigs, but music from Lady Gaga did not appear until quite late at the dance floor at power house. Bf and his crazy gang of people were quite high that night and the dance floor was super packed..and I smelled BO!! I am a hygeine freak and and that explains my abhor for BO.

Well, some reflection and thoughts that erupt on my mind. I was browsing through the book I bought for HJ and I read this phase "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith". I am not a Christian but this phase has appeared many times in obituaries. The meaning as described in the book truly inspires me. Another thing is..I am happy as long as you are happy and I know that you indeed are. To salvage the flaws of the past is just a deceit and a craving that is unnecessary of. Period.

I still need more sleep..RAWRS! Two more weeks of mugging and I am free. Suddenly, I do not know how to mug and use my time efficiently. I am so used to the fast pace at school that given this break, I do not know how to handle it well.

The last lesson on Thursday left a huge impact on me. The speech by prof and head TA left me speechless and to ponder deeply on what I should do for the rest of my years there. The choices and decision you made and the goals in life. Obviously people are so familiar with the term "goal", but what does it truly mean? It makes me reflect on how underachieving I am and if others could do it too, why not me? In fact, I have given myself too much excuses and reasons to not be a perfectionist and to slack for a bad cause.

After mugging, will be my road trip to M'sia with team mates. Work hard then play hard.

Jade Goody passed away while in her sleep early this week. Although she was a nasty person in Big Brother, but I was touched by the things she did before her death. Omitting the constant media's attention and scrutiny, I felt for her..not of sympathy but of emphathy. She was still young you see and she was the only celebrity other than Princess Diana whom I tried to dig out of her past. Perhaps it is because of the year 1981..a special year which I remember. May she be happy in heaven and freed from the sufferings of mankind.

Late this week, I made a confession and blurted out the truth after I saw one my group member crying for the first time. Death - a topic which is of taboo to speak lightheartedly of and related to fear. I walked countless streets and pondered on their perspectives of me. Sometime in certain situation, you feel a sense of unexplained emptiness of losing something. More often it affects female more than male.

I am at the verge of insanity lol. My friends commented that I am so drama and hyper in discussions. I just could not sit still. For a record breaking, I was in the library till 1130pm. How nice~

Insanity at its best. A kind of deja vu too.

A dream to own Noah Art or to have an animal ranch.

To be a superwoman.

Anyway, there's an Animal Day event on saturday, 21 March at my school campus green. Bring your adorable pets along and stand to win many MANY freebies. Come support this event. Any questions just feel free to let me know.

I do not want to sound too paranoid or depressing but I do feel the global financial and economy situation really depressing and hitting us malignantly. Just few hours ago, the iconic Merlion head was damaged by a forceful lightning. On a superstitious ground, it is somehow a perilous predicament. It is such a rare incident that the probability of happening is 1 in after 30 years. Then you watched the news and the government mention that unemployment may reach a low of 5%. And GIC raises it stakes in Citigroup to 11%..converting from prefererd to a common stockholder. You scrurry to school each day to see people going to work early and leaving the office as early as 5pm. Families off their houses' lights as early as 1opm. What's happening to a our country? I feel the need to tighten my money seatbelt and prepare for a series of 'Great' depression or perhaps another AFC.

On a lighter note, I am pampering myself with a music and gardening therapy. I feel so guilty but my spirits are better. I realised I was not a good officer but I will try to learn from my own mistakes rather than blaming others.

Not sure whether anyone had watched the movie/musical Evita. It is such an old film that when it was first in cinema I was still in primary 2. Anyway our group watched it as our midnight movie for the sake of our project. I was so enthralled by the musical and characters of the film. Even our beng says the musical tracks from the film is nice lo. Madonna does a good job playing the character of Eva Peron..I am so dead in love with her character..she's a strong lady! Do listen to the lyrics of don't cry for me Argentina and you must love me.

But, I was also disturbed by people who are struck with terminal illness early this week. And that includes Jade Goody, I saw the picture of her dying marriage with her husband on the papers..the picture expresses such emotion that I couldn't explain. Nevermind that Goody is a racist in Big Brother show..but it seriously paints a sad picture of life. That life is such a fragile thing and fame and fortune is just a transient moment in life.

While doing some window shopping, I happened to pass by Gramaphone and bought this cd featuring Norah Jones and her producer - Peter Malick. It includes unrealeased tracks and remixes. I think is quite a good blend of blues jazz , bossa nova and tinge of DJ remix.

I am so **^%ing pissed can!! Only managed to catch 3 hours of sleep and have to contain my irritation and anger. Just because of what..that they are big organizations and I have to deal with them professionally. Is not good been a liaison and communication officer at this stage but I think I am handling my emotions and feeling well enough. Something that I see as a positive challenge.

Don't bloody provoke a woman when she's having pms. haha..chill~

Something is wrong with my blogger account. The time and date are kind of wrong, but hopefully this post comes out in ONE piece.

Anyway, it has been quite a hectic and enjoyable weekend. Despite the fact that I was practically emotionally and mentally tortured during the end of this week, I still think it is a good learning experience. The negative feedback during our class places everyone almost in tears. While I tried to deny the truth within my character, I was forced to admit it. I was so disturbed by it..can you imagine it that nobody dare bring it up to me for 20 years or at least dare. However, now I am thrashed with it. Yes, I do admit it but definitely I choose to bury it subconsciously. Indeed, it makes me reflect on my childhood and growing up years better..how I was influenced into this state. Senior TA left me a message..I was touched. I didn't know I was great but she comforted me with her words and soon..I realized myself through Myers-Briggs.

Met up with dear friends for KL, Shin and SQ birthday dinner. Thanks for the treat. It has been a very long time since I laughed so heartily and enjoyed all your company.

The very next day had to execute my group's gardening project. If you can ever imagined how unglamorous I can be..haha it gotta be today man. Such a nice rainy and stormy weather to do gardening and uprooting weeds. Gals if you know which part of the month you better not be soaked in rainwater..yeah it gotta me. 4 gorgeous babes been soaked from head to toe and 2 hunks digging the soil. When you are soaked in the rain, you tend to do the silliest things and gorge out the most disgusting things (ants' nest, worms, snails etc).

Nvm about the hard toiling part, we gotta visit the plant nurseries and eat one of the best bak ku teh.

Went window shopping..agnes b and kate spade products are so expensive can. I love their brand and designs..simple yet sophisticated. While I can contemplate or hint any friend to buy me their bag or shirt during my birthday, I guess it is of better thrill to buy it yourself. It is a great sense of satisfaction to pamper yourself with luxuries items as you have the tendency to take good care of them. Anyway who would not reckon that branded stuffs are expensive? It is just a matter of time to move your lazy butt, work hard and earn more money or find a great job in order to enjoy such high living. But till then, times are bad so is better to save money for the rainy days.

Sat the Singapore flyers with yx on friday.Enjoyable trip which I appreciated lots but I feel guilty that I didn't buy a nice gift. I dunno what excuse I can give to justify myself except I am busy and poor..which is so lame lol. Anyway, enjoy the pics.

Flyers from afar

Golf Course

Changing lights of the flyer

Suntec City

Blurry view with Esplanade at the left

Someone complains that the posts in my blog are too pessimistic and that my blog could do better as my life is not that uninteresting. Is it that gloomy? Being anti-camwhore, I don't like taking photos as my face either turn out too fat or my eyes are too small. I don't have the random habit of taking photos while on the move and having meals at interesting places. But perhaps my blog could do better with more photos and illustrations rather than juz words and...words.

I have so many essays and reports to do..so rather than mugging I have nothing else to update on. Is tiring and my English isn't that do so I do not how to craft my essays in a more convincing tone. I am buzzing to meet deadlines...buzzing to a well good end of April.

Again another someone says I am un-feminist. She claims that I do not support the rights of female and let those bunch of MCPs dictate our roles. Truth is I do support female rights but there are some insensitive stereotypes that are so common. It is better that you just ignore them rather than acknowledge them and risk flaring up. Such stuffs can no longer irritate me or at the least bother me much.

There are so many things on my mind these days and I seem to be multi-tasking all the time. I dunno how some brilliant people from my school can juggle both CCA, friends and school committments so efficiently and effortlessly. To them, they would have less time and being more tired than many of their peers. But I still wanna know how they manage to do it and yes I am dying to know..it all still boils down to time management, effective studying and speed reading. But tell me..HOW to DO THEM?? It is seriously easier to say than be done.

I couldn't imagine myself falling sick this week. My whole body was painful and my head was throbbing. But yet I managed to drag my body to school and tolerate that bloody air-con. I was so in a 'give-up' mode that I just skipped lesson on the friday. Please if there's anything I wish..is just good health to tolerate all the schedules I have.

Planning and re-planning..exams, quizzes, essays deadlines, project meetings, CCAs and workshops. Oooooohhhh, just freaking leave me alone can? In addition, I am so worry for her, I am so into the pessimistic of life. I am fearing the worse as it seems I am somehow cut of all connection or contacts means from her. Please pray for her safety and may she survive all adversities. PEACE~

Happy Chinese New Year!

Just came back from my reunion dinner and am super full. I am so afraid to gain more weight over the new year la. Is so relaxing to be the couch potato again and watch programmes on the television for the whole day..the feeling is DAMN good.

This week is quite hectic and my eyes were kinda sore due to the lack of sleep over the few days. Managed to submit my first essay through Turnitin on the wee hours of friday night. Spent a whole day just to write this essay and I off my handphone and all electrical devices to avoid distraction. Prof told us that her A student hid himself in the toilet just to come out with a strong argument for his essay.

In addition, ahem..my "aunt" came and I was super exhausted and lethargic that I could even stand straight and sleep through out the train ride. Sleep to me is very important, it is like my elixir of life and of cuz my magic potion to beauty LOL. Assignments are piling high but again is never ending for at least 12 more weeks I guess so I am gonna dump them in one corner and till then..KIV first.

Went to visit the buddhist centre and the administrator told my parents and I some stuffs. Not being superstitious but it did apply to me though..gonna pray Tian Gong and have a water cleansing ceremony. She told us that female with their age of last digit 2, 6 and 8 and male 3, 6 and 9 must be wary each year especially when the age is their chinese age. Some years back I managed to "esacpe" from the chinese age but it came true for my english age. So ya, for dragon this year, it is better to MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.

Our TA did this poster for our group. Super hilarious act and I became the gay smokescreen?!

Feeling so tired and sleepy these days. There are so many readings, assignments and projects to do..and it's only the second week! Practically have no mood to even do my tutorials. It seems so spectacular that our mind can come out with so many creative excuses to not do something rather than to do them. First, is the post traumatic syndrome..what's with all the mini coopers and mazda on the roads these day? Second, is chinese new year. Next, is my desktop cpu crashes and the monitor blanks out at the most unpredictable moment. What's with HP?!

There are so many question that I couldn't answer for myself..like what's the purpose in my life? Have this guy classmate of mine who's from Macau and he has somehow empower me with his words..anyway it makes me think whether people from City Harvest are that energetic and optimistic?

Met up with ying jie on friday and woohaa...we bumped into yc, shin, kw and qy at JP.

I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward.
-Thomas Edison

NVM. Try again lo.

My first post for 2009 haha. Most people have resolution and new fresh plans for this year, but I am just gonna say it's just another year gone by. Everything is still the same, the world we are living in, the places we frequent. Things don't change when the last digit of the 4 numerals changes, things change constantly. The moment you close your eyes and await the next morning, there are so many changes around this planet. How many people dying of hunger, crimes, disaster be it big or small, birth etc while you are sleeping. I used to hate changes in my life especially sad ones or sudden shocking ones, but it is undeniably true that changes are happening to us faster than we ever notice..faster than the melting of ice caps but slower than the bullet train.

Perhaps I have been escaping from few things that struck me some 2 years back. I choose not to say them and do not have the courage to face these few things that blotch my past. Sound as if it's very scary eh..although it's nothing serious too. The past is always with us and it's time I stop running..just like that of archaeological digs. I was torn apart between choosing to pretend as what my relatives and parents told me to do so and talking to myself late at night as if a muse will hear me. Nonetheless, I will find the courage and as for you, I am happy that you are happy cuz I ain't good in the past. I still feel a slight tinge of melancholy when I see people having those sweet memories that I used to have but perhaps this feeling will subside when I grow to love myself and others more..and be a better mother in the future.

School is starting and ciao to all the fun and fantasy I had for 1 month. It has been a nice week..cycling, blading, watching movies, dinner and new year wishes from friends. The food at din tai fung was good and we watched Little Nyonya at Jas's house. It feels good to have nice friends whom you feel comfy with. As usual of an egoistic and thriving to shine Leo native, I want to work harder this year. Although people say I don't behave like a Leo but the Leo genes are in my blood somehow lol~ No more laziness but work and play smart.