Herbal tea can really kill me. Oh well..every sunday is herbal tea day and mum has to prepare herbal tea. Appreciate her effort and feel kinda warm by her actions. But the tea is a killer cuz she adds lots of strong herbs inside which she claims can remove toxic from the body. And with my stomach feeling unwell lately..with sudden cramps and pain, my stomach starts acting up again and guess I will not be enjoying any nice meal during this festive season.

Did projects in school for the past few days and was surprised to see many classmates in the library lately. Greeted CL for a consecutive 2 days and was kinda erp cuz I kept meeting him. Had dinner with sec classmates at Imperial Place or is it Palace? The la mian was bland and salty in my opinion but the xiao long bao was delicious yum yum la. The soup just oozed and melted in my mouth. Althought it was just a short gathering but well I got an update of their lives in Uni.

Saturday went with SQ,KL,JX, Shin and QY to town for some last minute christmas shopping and I can't think of any nice and presentable christmas gifts except..choc. Met with YiJia and she was so sweet to give me a nice box of dessert from Gobi which had to be pre-ordered. And in the midst of happiness and warmth..I forgot to return her 35 bucks. Lolz~

Around evening, met Brother Denki for dinner. First time entering Geylang..which let me see the other darker and happening side of S'pore life. Didn't do any hanky panky business there of cuz but ate frog leg porridge. Damn nice la~ But feel kinda sinful when I saw how they stored the live frogs. The waitress talked in a very thick Chinese accent and I had to ask her to repeat a second time before I got my order. Bro kept adding frog legs into my plate and you can imagine the piles of frog leg bones stacking. I feel kinda sadist and cannbalism to eat frogs. They are such adorable creature dun ya think? muahaha~

Stood outside the corridor while waiting for him. As it was raining out there, I was holding on a long CLOSED umbrella and some guys started looking at me like some freaking alien on exhibtion. Asked Bro what's wrong with the umbrella and he told me that Geylang Chicks always hold umbrella to distinct themselves from others. Duh~

Had a mini tour of Geylang in the car as I was curious to see what kinda life it is in Geylang at night. And even as a female..my nose and eyes nearly bleed at the sight of real beauty. Yesh..real beauty with solid sexy figures and perfect symmetrical faces. These chicks are gorgeous especially those from China and Thailand and ya..they held umbrellas. But behind each of them is every different sad stories in which forced them to such business and of life's harsh and unpredictable reality and truth.

How fast time flies and it's gonna be the end of this year. Busy with projects and tests lately and conflicts are erupting like no othere people's business. Imagine developing fear of traffic lights and cars due to lack of sleep and rest. Worn out but still satisfied with the life I am in. Have friends whom can always chat to and crap with. But how long can these memories last as we are going our separate paths in a few months time. Would we even greet each other on the road in the the future? The laughter, joys and pain we had together would just be frozen as a memory and part of our chapters in life.

Wednesday was a 'kena suan and shoot' day for me. You know who you are lo and me being a butt of joke for the countless boats I row in. lol~ Was rather tired and sleepy that day but the jokes kept me awake.

Watched Golden Compass which was a great movie..waiting for the next sequel. Read Tiger in the Well by Phillip Pullman before. After watching the movie by this same author, realised he's indeed a great author with so much creative juices and imagination. Btw..SQ can't stopped giggling when I ate my Nacho. Alright, Nachos are noisy and crunchy stuffs but perhaps I should try to eat it slower and less noiser.

Ate Penang laksa prepared by our very own Chef Lai..damn nice la. Not too sour and not to salty. The taste was perfect in the mouth and the chicken is a perfect side dish. First time having friends to prepare a nice meal for me.

Christmas around the corner and broke with the money I had spent on presents. Wanted to get some life out of Christmas break but realised my plans would soon be deteered by projects.

Another tired week of doing projects and the more I need music to relax and umwind. Realised how important listening to music is to improve my foul mood. It has become my life and soul just like how human can't live without water and air. Through out my years in school and sometimes working experience, I spotted some very bad habits and weak points which have accumulated and increasingly become tougher to eradicate. Like being unable to multi-task, being muddle-headed and poor in mental calculation due to my heavy reliance in calculator and poor maths foundation. How could I survive in the finance industry which I always dream of? Choices I made in life seem a little wrong and I find myself rather slow-witted such that I can't be successful and what I do will always deem ineffective.

Told myself not to be defeated by such pessimistic thoughts perhaps cuz I am a perfectionist in my life goals and definetly not studies. Being pathetic and mourning in one's own flaws won't solve my problem and the more I will lag behind others. So I will try and let me sink in the inspirational sea of music to remain revitalise for the time being.

Went to Suntec to do my FYP ytd..initially wanted to do it at Starbucks but landed at Mac. Yesterday was a crazy morning at home. Woke up and kena lectured by mum to tidy up my room which was clattered with paper and tonnes of rubbish. Asked my dad for extension plug and after that rocks my life completely.

Me: U have extension plug around?

Dad: U think I have, go find in the storeroom.

Me: Erm, storeroom is ur territory.

Dad buay song enters storeroom

Dad: Here it's.

Me: Huh, so big..have smaller ones?

Dad started ranting about how young girls now can't even carry such stuffs and told me he can't be bothered. Let him nag away while I took my bathe. Was about to leave the house when he stopped me and produce a Made In Sinagpore cheena plastic bag. Told me to put the extension plug inside or else I can't leave. Running late so I juz put inside and that's when my dear groupmates laughed at the plastic bag.

Life is crazy when you have parents who are going through menopause. They can be irrational at times but seriously, deep down they still show equal concern just that they express it in another more uncoventional way. Will never feel how it likes until I am a parent myself.

Temper kinda volatile these few days. Or should I say my temper will be like this until the FYP is over. I do not have much solitude time at home and I go about each day like a rat race..scurrying from the start to the finishing line. At least I live each day knowing there's a purpose behind it but am seriously lethargic with all the brain work and lack of sleep. I snapped at people who irritates me, cursed and muttered F alot of time. Stomach growls and hunger pangs jump sky high by 7pm everyday. Was chasing the bus home one night when a contractor worker blocked my way. Dunno whether he was purposely doing so..he or I too fat to cross the pathway, I just couldn't walked out of his sight. In a very bad and dizzy state, I nearly slapped his face and asked him to FO..but these were just illusionary.

Another incident, was when the bus braked suddenly. Reckless and siaoz bus driver who wanna kill all his passengers on board. Practically everyone flew from their seats and there's this poor gal who sprawled on the floor. My laptop dropped from my hands but I managed to hold tight on the railings. Poor laptop..has to work so hard this semester and yet meet such an irresponsible owner. Better take care of it or else it goes on strike.

Tried listening to RnB and hip hop while doing stuffs at home, but get more irritated with the people singing and chanting slurry raps in it. Can't take in stuffs that talk so switched to mute, ocassional voices and rhythmic beats of trance and lounge. Smooths out my mood..thought of the night of trance featuring Smokin' Jo. Then thought of DJ Skinny, dunno why everytime when I am in a loss or frustrated mood, I would think of her. Is she such a gd meditator? Received warm sms and ocassional call from people around me. Realli encourage me along and sorta revived my soul.

Next week is another battle, am I ready for it? Hope I am~

Is being a year since you left this place called Earth and continue on your journey to Heaven or Pureland. Our destiny is short and if I had a choice, I should have get to know you better and cherish every memories you had with me. On this very same day last year, I saw your cold lifeless body resting. Your face expressed how much you had struggled throughout your final moment and of how much you had not wished to leave us. My hopes were dashed and life seem bleak without you. I couldn't find my bearings on Earth and I faltered for almost a year. But I know you are by my side and you wouldn't want to see in this dismal state. Life has to continue and I gotta be strong.

I lost something
Something close to me.
A dear friend was taken away
And that dear friend was part of me.
She left us all in a huff
We cannot understand
Why a journey she has to go
Had to end so sad
She flew away you see
Her soul flew up above
No more hurt or pain or suffering
Except for those she loved..to a better place we know
We cannot stop the heartache
We say she lived life to the fullest
But deep in our heart we secretly know
She had so many more dreams, she was not meant to go
You were a dear friend
And that you still are
A bubbly person who was full of fun
And up above I'm sure you still are
Even though you're gone my friend
I know we'll meet again
Maybe not today, tomorrow or the next day
But the day when my life on earth comes to an end
I may not know the answer
Of when the day may come
But from the very moment of now you shall be in my mind
I'm sure you will be in our heart
Wherever you maybe
I ask God for one last wish... Please bless her soul
With only one there is only you whom we loved so dearly

(By Ken Tan)

When parents are least understanding of your needs, you kinda feel redundant in this family. They always think money is power and thrash you with it as an easy solution to satisfy your needs. Or should I say they have erractic mood swings and their attitude change with their mood. I told them that I have a final year project to rush and would be rather busy. And what is my dad reply..can you do this and that for me, can you pack your messy room by a specific dateline, can you sleep earlier, why didn't you read your Reader Disgest, you are wasting my money subscribing it. I am sorry, can you give me some grace period. What..you can't even do a simple thing for me. Wow, I didn't know I have a specific dateline for household chores. I will say ok, then nod as they nag away about how they want this particular thing to be done. Once I show signs of disinterest, arrows shooting time start. Dad will say I always show my sulky temper and mood and that my attitude sux downright and so..it's a waste of time to talk to me about any single thing regarding family stuffs. And ya, so I am gradually left out when it comes to family matter. Alrite, it doesn't matter. Hey dad/mum, I have sth to share. You noe what people say about sharing and spending quality time with your parents. Their reaction-is your own life now, I am busy with my work. I don't understand this and that and most often- their heads turning away from the particular object that I wanna share.

Recently, had my room painted and new furnitures bought for my study room. Dad painted the room fresh lime green and violet. Overall, very satisfy with my room cuz dad put in alot of effort to paint it and had the furnitures arranged. But before that it was hell week. Dad practically put all my stuffs in the living room and my computer, as a result was disconnected. These were very much understandable. So I went about the living room searching for my stuffs which were kinda displaced and hidden somewhere. There came the time when I started hitting the books. No adequate light source since the living room's light were rather dim. No chance upon the kitchen, as it's too messy too. So each night after dad completed his painting session, I place my books and stationary back to my room. And his response was rather shocking. He started grumbling about how petty I am and started commenting like a critic " It looks like you're rushing me to finish painting the room. Since is so, I don't wanna paint your room la. Don't paint then don't paint lo."

Kinda demoralized by friday since my mum nearly freaked me out as she vommitted whole night (doc said it was food poisoning), a vey precious ball broke and by some harsh words my parents commented. Mood was better when DJ Skinny called me to chat. I heard her soothing voice through the phone and all troubles around me seem so insignificant at that particular moment.

Thurday, trained with classmates for 2.4km. Didn't manage to hit the passing grade and which means, I'm seriously unfit. Started wheezing while I ran and felt rather breatheless. Such poor stamina so my target is to train properly for my NAPFA and get beyond the bronze award. During primary school days, managed to clinched gold awards and it always seemed so easy. But during sec, stamina went downhill and each time I looked into the mirror, I see a fat orange staring back at me. haha~

On the same day, was freaking late for a birthday dinner as we spent too much time on training and didn't planned our time properly. The food there quite nice and erm..which is better than the Bao Gong XO Zi Char near my area la.

School started and although it's kinda honeymoon week for us but soon it will emerge as a terror and demanding semester. Classes are located at different areas of school which means having to walk further and which is damn sianz. But looking at the brighter side...it means exercising a little rather than just sitting on chairs and watching my tummy growing into a life-saving buoy.

Had to take NAPFA this semester, everyone is worried about it and exercising as much as possible. p.s. haven't started my exercise scheme though Guys are more worry than us as it determines their fate in BMT and NS. I heard of many scary military training stories from ex-NS guys but some are good though. All things have a balance of bad and good points I guess.

Final semester indicates many stuffs to me and my peers. We think of stuffs that we never thought of before. Career, further studies, money etc. Being of an undecisive nature, I faltered on my path to future and made decision based on my feelings rather than reason. Gotta change this habit and be more pragmatic. Realise my general knowledge on world issues is like zero so hope WISP can save me. muahaha~

Friday went shopping with classmates and CalvinKlein advertisement rocks my life. It seriously aroused my attention and wild thoughts. Was hungry by mid-afternoon maybe cuz I had porridge for lunch.

Weekend attended the CareerFair by JobsCentral, Too packed with people but managed to approached some education and employing exhibitors. Went to HSBC Insurance and met this bubbly lady called Florence. Thought she was a financial planner all the while until she told us she's a recruit manager. I wanna meet Adam Khoo and Robert Kiyosaki la. Watched Brothers during evening. Great movie with a twist to the ending but can do be better with more action and less talk.

CPTC has ended after 6 weeks of torture, thrill and teamwork. Didn't put my best effort through out the training but learned quite a lot about the kinda real life plant work here. It's not a big process plant here. But the trainers were so enthusiatic on imparting knowledge of being a fieldman and a boardman. calling boardman..send..calling fieldman..send..please open the bypass valve of LCV001..oOOkkK. That's the most frequent message during the shift training cuz C100 was always flooding. haha~

My group had lotsa capable people who were seriously very brilliant. Most of the time I would be listening and following them on how to isolate, decommission, operate the eqipments. I just can't visualize the whole plant diagram. Learned how to open those stubborn valves and overcome my fear of heights by climbing up the distillation columns. Was kinda dizzy when I was on top of the column as it was swaying with the wind. But the view up there was dazzling.

Night shift was a terror. Had to force myself to be awake at like 4am when my brain was in partial hibernate and shutdown mode. But the nice guys in my group kept us entertained with their silly jokes and JunXiang's Nintendo kept my brain working.

On Friday, had lunch with classmates at Sakura Buffet. Everyone ate like hungry wolves but the soup is nice la. Didn't had nice food for 6weeks, survived on cup noodles, bread and biscuits. Then watched Balls of Fury at Cineleisure. Hilarious comedy which tickled my stomach and laughter cells constantly. Kept breaking into hiccups of laughter by their action. Didn't noe can produce a movie with a ping-pong ball theme.

Next day, cycle with YJ, HJ, JX, SQ and JP at ECP. Packed with too many people there so can't realli enjoy the thrill of cycling freely. So many obsturctions and how I wished I had not installed that crappy basket holder on the front of my bicycle. Was shagged and hungry by evening, so had dinner at Burger King's. YJ and SQ resembled pop stars with their shades and caps. Enjoyed the cool sea breeze and tcs to the max.

Watched another Jap Eiga..Deiya Furenzu (Dear Friends). A perfect movie which moved me to tears. Touching story that reveals on the meaning of friendship. Are Friends Necessary? If only I could grab hold of Yoshi's novel here. Ayase Haruka, Erika Sawajiri & Keiko Kitagawa are brilliant actress. Most importantly, Jap dorama and eiga rocks my life completely.

An interesting week with conflicts at training centre and home, laughter on Friday and some self-reflection. I shall not post any personal attack or personal grudges cuz perhaps I am a some sort of peace lover and it's already the last sem..so let bygone be bygone. The conflict started cuz of my selfishness which I admit and both parties' ignorance. It's of no use to use this blog as a source of criticism as it only proves that I have not let this matter be a history and it will only let the opposite party thinks otherwise..which boils down to a foolish child game if another conflict and misunderstanding strike cuz of my comments. Time is like a ticking time bomb to me in this whole sem, no time to waste no time to lose. If there's one thing I yearn for and that's to complete this sem and move on to the next phase of my life.

I looked at my Brother with the Microscope of criticism,

And I siad , "How corase my Brother is."

I looked at him through the Telescope of Scorn

And I said, "How small my Brother is."

Then I looked in the Mirror of Truth

And I said, "How like me my Brother is."

We live and work and dream,

Each has his little scheme,

Sometimes we laugh

Sometimes we cry

And thus the days go by

In time of crisis, friends and religion play a fair part as the pillar of support. Different friends may have different opinions, some may say you are the one at fault or perhaps not the one at fault. But it's religion which will not tell you a single answer but ask for true-refelction and meditate your broken soul.

Mood was better after watching Ratatouille with friends on a late night. Though was home late but movies always give me a sudden boost and fruity burst in life.

Time to do mugging since tests are near. Realised I m a rather slow learner and a daydreamer. A fact I don't deny. mUahaha~

3 weeks of short break and it ended so soon. 6 weeks of CPTC at Jurong Island juz started this week. First time entering the island and transportation is rather daunting. Have to take a shuttle bus from Lakeside and enter the Island Checkpoint again for security reasons. Being rather absent-minded, I was paranoid about the fate of my pass to the Island.

First three days of the training, had to attend full 8 hours of lecture from morning to evening. After wednesday, lessons start on afternoon but food is a problem. During attachment, had proper meals provided, although the canteen food wasn't that good but at least stomach was filled with enough food to last my day there. Here, nobody bothered to eat the canteen food as it tasted rather bad, but to think about it, it's much better than cold food from packed dinner. Packing dinner from home is tedious and trouble-some cuz you have to think what to eat and the rice is cold when you eat it like after 4 hours.

6 weeks of tight theory and practical schedule could be a terror as my brain is not that powerful and I believe I am quite a slow learner compared to my peers. Had to absorb all information that's thrashed on me so..gotta tell my brain to work faster and smarter.

Woke up on monday and glanced at the alarm clock. 9.30pm, eyes were wide open, quickly rushed to the toilet and mind was racing. How do I explain to Boss..Should I give them a call? Took me a few seconds to realise that I am no longer working in the company and hey..is break time for me ya.

Prepare slides and do some editing stuffs early this week but my mind was wandering. Kinda distracted and procastinating as usual. In the mood for holiday and slacking. In the end, I sat at the sofa watching rent drama and movies. Watched "Heart of Greed" finally after like so many months. Realised that TVB has so many upcoming potential rising stars and can't help but wondered what would be the fate of the old stars. Fell in love with Linda Chung's Character-Sheung Tsoi Sum. Her character was a strong and determined girl..her smile-almost dazzling and sweet. And ya..adore the character, Jackie, that played a wilful yet strong girl too.

Accompany parents to a four days Buddha's Prayer Event as part of the Hungry Ghost Festival. The last day being a saturday and final offerings being burnt. I approached the so-called Information Counter and met three old aunties sitting separately on chairs. S'pore version of SHE. Serious lo, although they are old (can be my grandmother) but their hair were a golden brown, had ear and nose peircing and were so hip. Just imagine some very chio Tai Mei on the streets..except this time they are slightly older. One had long hair, another with shoulder-length hair and the last with short and spiky hair. puNk~

On saturday, I sat just beside the offering for wandering children soul. Kinda creepy but had no choice. Felt some ticklish sensation at the bottom of my ankles..realised it was a poor hungry kitten. Talking about supernatural sights, the kitten smelled the fragrance of the freshly cooked rice, soup and buns at the offereing area, but it refused to go near it.

At the evening, the shifu and his fellow monks chanted prayers to invite the spirits. It started to rain ferociously and the wind was chilly-almost chilling the bones. There was a paper white crane and a lantern hanging on a willow tree outside. Dad said it was to guide the spirits to this location. When it was raining, the crane and lantern swinged like mad and the sight was rather..haunting. Towards the end of the chantings, I felt a sudden numbness and chilly sensation at my knees. Never had I experience wind that only blew my legs and not my whole body. I think I must the only one who fidgeted the most in my seat..all the uncles, aunties and some 20++ years old adults sat serenely on their chairs. Some even chanted the prayers like some rap la. Didn't know the old aunties had so much breathe to chant the whole prayer loudly.

Miraculously, the heavy downpour ended when the monks went to the field to burn all offerings. A day of supernatural and pious prayers.

We heard of so many stuffs that our friends or loved ones mentioned before. Some of their casual comments while others are perhaps their favourite words (yo, wat's up, bleahz) or their wishes in lives (a car, a dream condo, to earn their first 10K). You get so used to their words and presence around you that you take life for granted. When you woke up from the harsh cruelty of life, you realised that perhaps that person is gone. That person has slipped out of your life, no longer is that person gonna return as he or she has went for a long vacation. Life is so uncertain and people only grief or mourn when they miss that someone.

Got a scare when uncle called to say grandma had blood in her urine and she was in utmost pain. Grandma went to see the doc and the doc suspected that it was ya..u know..some very common terminal illness which I don't wanna mention. Took a few days to do some scanning on her and all my relatives were preparing for the worst. I was like..no Buddha, no please, not such illness, better not. Things turned out fine but doc said had to keep her condition monitored from now on. pHew~

Had a nice dinner on the eve of my birthday with DJ Skinny. She treated me to Dian Xiao Er, nice roasted duck with dangui lo. She said I was too fat so I shld not eat too much duck skin and she ate all..haha, great! Seriously, after shaking those separating funnels for extraction I realised that my arms had grown bigger, not flabby but with fair bit of meat and some muscle. And the funny thing is my right arm is bigger than my left cuz I did more work with it. Have to start exercising or else it will look weird.

She bought me some presents and I was touched to bits..it's been some time since I experineced such warmth and love.

Had a birthday dinner with Jasper, SQ, JX, Shin, KW, QY, BL, YC, KH, HJ at New York New York to celerbrate QY, Jasper and my bday. The chicken I ordered was such a large potion but yummy. Thanks all for organising this event and the gifts you all had bought. haha~

Tuesday had lunch with colleagues, including one uncle, a female and male worker, at one of the food centre near Jurong side. Cuz the uncle would be flying off to HK for holiday trip so he had a lunch treat with us. Food was not too bad, I ordered apple juice and ate lotsa meat and veggies. Kinda weird atmosphere to be eating together with them. Looks like a family with a father and 3 children..me being the youngest. lolz

Wednesday was suppose to have pasta mania cuz one of the female colleague was leaving company. But realised that pasta mania don't make delivery to our area. So ended up having pizzas for lunch. Waited for uncle YC to finish his BOD test until 8pm on that similar day and headed down to NYDC for dinner with Uncle YC, Jackie and Jasper.

Yummy..Irish Creme and Tiramisu

Friday marks the last day of IA. 6 months of work and finally it ended on that day. I gave different departments their respevtive gifts and OMG..my department ate all the stuffs I bought for them in one day. Big appetite.. Received some gifts from colleagues, was rather touched cuz they took the effort to buy them and chose my favourite colour. The start of IA was not that smooth sailing, with some comflicts and bickers with some workers there. But I sticked on to the belief that 困难挫折有一定的寿命。困难不会待久，强者必可常存。没有眼泪， 没有挫折的人生，不是真正的人生。

Mum's moodswing reached its peak yesterday. She was on the verge of breaking down and suffering depression. Many things happened and nearly collapse our family. Through these incident, I witness how weak and vulnerable my mum is, and cuz she is also undergoing menopause, she tends to veer on the pessimistic side of life. I felt how she suffered through these silent months and how her heart broke each time I lost my temper whenever she lost her mind. I made a imformal vow to her last night that was part of my responsibilty as her daughter. Although she's not fully recovered yet but at least there's me and my dad's support. so..sMilEs

Bought gifts for departments and realised..seriously, I felt that I am like a santa claus. Might as well dumped all the gifts in one red bag and booked a cab to work. Modern santa claus don't use reindeers cuz sky tax is more expensive than road tax. lOlz..lame rite, I also think so. But anyway, initially I had thought of buying gifts for individuals but to think about it carefully, I would be financially broke and so..to buy a gift to be shared among everyone would be more economical.

Last four days in company, somehow would definetly miss the cute uncles but to consider the scary workload there, it would be enough to scare me out of my wits. I reached home around 9pm after work on one of the weekdays and I nearly freaked out.

The moment I reached home, I just laid flat on the sofa and my mind was in a daze (to much chloroform?). Hope that next week would have less samples to test cuz I wanna sLacK to e max.

My dear friends especially Ying Jie would be returning to Spore soon. Can't wait to catch up with them. I am getting exhilarated over the things I may be doing during my short break. Give me some anxiety calming pills..haha. Don't even know whether I am able to execute all my plans yet. Recently, I felt rather stingy and can't bear to part with my money.

Have planned a shopping list on the items to get over the short break. Got to save more money after this gifts splurge or I may end up waiting for sponsorship in order to get the items I want.

Rashes attack this whole week. So itchy and I felt like a chimpanzee in the zoo. Where's my banana? Red itchy spots all over my body and I just kept scratching and scratching non-stop..distracting my attention and in a fluster. Some say is due to the cold weather, some say is a skin allergy problem and Jasper says is due to the bacteria in wastewater sample. All could be true but I suspect is chemical allergy or stress. Went to see doc and that doc just prescribed some non-itch cream and pills. Didn't even tell me what were the possible causes la..wasted my money.

Supervisor left this week. So another supervisor would be rating my overall performance. oOps Had a buffet lunch treat on Thursday. Nice one lo. Some workers were promoted so had this special lunch treat. No need to eat canteen food that day after so many months.

Ate at Marina South Steamboat wif brother Denki and friends after work. That evening was a rather cool weather so had no problem grilling the meat. I added lotsa magarine to grill the food so hope nobody gets fatter after the meal. Did my speciality..frying vegetables on the hot plate. Haha..nobody wanted to eat my fried vegetables leh cuz they found it kinda weird to fry vegatables instead of meat wif magarine. So I ate all of them..they tasted delicious though.

Accompany parents to Lavender Street to arrange some seven month praying ritual then headed down to Clark Quay to shop for things and dinner at Chen Fu Ji. The night scene there was great and rather happening..OMG one whole stretch of chill-out places at The Cannery not forgetting The Clinic. Many chio girls there so I felt rather haha..out of place. Saw a belly dance performance outside one of the bar. ~Many hungry wolves drooling~

Mum complained that it's too crowded there and she still prefered anuties friendly places like Vivo, Orchard and OG.

An ordinary week with work on weekdays and movies on weekends. Thursday was extremely cold and I felt that I'm like working in North Poles with the air-con switched to full blast. That morning started with dark clouds, kinda worried that it would rain but all went fine until I boarded the bus. Had to walk quite a distance to reach company and ended up battling with the storm. My poor umbrella flew up and I had to hold on to it tightly. Poor drainage system there and like expected..heavy flood with mudwater.

Umbrella only managed to cover my head. Rest of body soaked with water even my shoes were wet. Reached office totally drenched..dripping water everywhere. Blowdry whole body..hairdryer rawks la. Then exchanged safety boots with labmate. Felt kinda bad that she had to wear slippers while I wore her boots so I dumped my shoes in the oven.

That afternoon had an unexpected lunch treat for the whole department. Cuz one of my supervisor is leaving soon. All workers from the same department gathered in the canteen to eat..even Boss was there. Dunno why he kept smiling and grinning. His smile always brings a hidden potent aura to it and downright spooks me.

Watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Where's the phoenix?? The narration of the story was weird as in the critical part of the story was not being told. The magical battle of Dumbledore and You Know Who was too short and I want more. Muahaha. But anyway it's still an above average movie. Hopes the next movie would be better.

Whose sexy back?

Had a conversation with a girl call K in lab. She's someone who's daring (dare to wear revealing tops), jokes and talks cock everyday, likes taking self-pic of herself (camwhore i guess?) and is a seriously bubbly and zesty girl. Btw..she's a new staff employed by company.

K walks into lab one early morning. She starts rambling and talking cock as usual.

Irritated by the noises she makes..everyone asks her to shHhh

Me: How come u can talk non-stop without getting tired

K: Cuz I can lo..haha

K: Why leh, u not happy ah?

Me: Ya, wanna shut ur mouth and seal it with parafilm

K: Wah lau, u dare? I have many back-up bodygaurds to rescue me. I juz "weet-weet" them and they will line up in one perfect row.

Me: U are a rare species on earth. Talk so much won't be thirsty?

K: I am camel lo..

Me: Haha..where's ur humps?

K: In front ma, u can't see it? OMG, it's so huge. (she heaves a chest upwards to make it more obvious)

Me: Ya rite..if you are a camel then I am camel too. All zha bo have that humps in front.

K: Realli?? How cum urs not obvious de. Ur boobs 几小 worz.

Me: -_-'' (whacks K up)

Not first time being teased about my "humps" too. My poor little humps have being refer to as air-base, airport runway, half-filled cup etc. Haha. Blame it on genes or improper diet. But at my height and size, if I had too huge humps..it will look rather unproportional.

Get you love drunk off my hump. My hump, my hump..my lovely little lumps (Check it out) ~lalala~

Alrite..enough of humps lolz or else it will get rather strange here.

Pondering on what to get for my suprvisor. Dunno what to get for him as I'm lousy at buying gifts. Key chains, wallet, an arm-rest, mug for coffee? Arrgh, gotta spend a lot end of this month to get everyone a nice gift. And how nice that my mother's bday falls on next month too. She's bugging me to have a driving license and to treat her to a nice dinner since I am earning money. But I'm not earning a lot though since I'm an IA student. Filial piety is still the top of priority.

Maybe she's too soft
Maybe she's too timid
Afraid of taking risk
Afraid of offending people

Such that she's someone
Who's always trapped
Denied of her freedom
A mask void of all expression
Losing her true identity slowly

If she ever desensitized her heart
Emerge as another person
Would people embrace it
Cuz circumstances force her so
Is a brutal life's survivor game

The guy whom I taught a little on some basic testing had left the company. He received the Government's order to serve NS back at Msia. Alrite..although I grumbled and complained about his attitude in my older post but his character ended up to be not too bad.

Had to wash some bottles in the storeroom this week. Then someone from Soil Lab told me about a few horrifying stories in that storeroom. That person even took a video clip of the things in the storeroom on one particular night. I refused to see it cuz by hook or crook I had to enter that storeroom aniwaez. Plucked up my courage and entered that storeroom lo..wat else to do? lOlz

Bought some stuffs after shopping with friends. Discovered that people do change..not of those kind that changed for the worst.

Saw my presentation date. Kinda eager to present but oso kinda worry about it though. Mixed feelings I guess. *gLuP*

Kor kor met me after work to drive me home and bought a BIG box of Bah Kwa and pork floss for family. Realised the shortcut from company to home from the route he drove..can save me 30 minutes of my travelling time leh! But too bad cuz I dun have a car. I have to depend on public transport.

Many new and interesting movies coming out this month..and talking about this month. I still have 6 more weeks to my ultimate freedom. Woot!! Imagine doing the routine stuffs for months so much such that you have become a walking human machine. And to meet urgent datelines set out by clients. Each client's folder will be marked with URGENT!! and you know by hook or crook you have to produce results immediately. You work hard to produce results and phew..you breathe a sign of relief when it's all over. A taste of sweet satisfaction!

There's this inner wild child in me saying "Get some life gal." Many wild and crazy plans to do on August but to execute them is another thing. Procastination is one obstacle that I have to clear, a devil hmm..which some sort of always triumps over the inner wild yet angelic child.

Many new movies to catch this month but gotta resist my temptation or else I will be seriously broke. lOlz Mum's birthday is next month so have to treat family for a sumptous dinner at perhaps Vivo cuz mum luvs it there. Not forgetting a nice present for her which she's rather picky of..not easy to please the matriach of the household lo. gEez

Had a bout of cough and flu this whole whooping week. Damn it! Cough like one old toad and the uncle still have the mood to shoot me..told me to leave him at least 1 m. Haha. Friday was even funnier la, we "enjoyed" a coughing orchestra in the lab. More like a hospital warded with patients suffering from cough attack rather than a lab.

Steph left company on Thursday. I was super uber sad cuz she's one true whacky gal who taught me to find faith in life. Her laughter always brighten up my day and the farewell hug that day was the warmest one.

Spend my weekends slacking at home. Super humid and dry weather these days...read the papers that Asia is experiencing climate changes. China has drought and the Himalayans are facing floods. Global warming or a ailing mother nature? Is it gonna be the end of the world soon, if that's so I will have mixed feelings.. feelings of happiness and sadness. Sounds rather psycho yea? Hot weather is making me restless and mad.

More than half of the company's population was down with flu and cough. There's this really smelly water sample that smell like a mix of rubbish dump and manure. One of the female worker was put in charged of the water sample testing. And guess wad, she had a real bad case of runny and blocked nose. When I'm thinking that she can't smell the odour of the sample, she ransacked all the drawers in the lab for => face mask.

When I had just recovered from a sore throat, another bout of sore throat attacked me again. Thanks to all the contagious air-borne flu virus. This whole thing is plain sick la, taking sore throat, cough and flu being my greatest nightmare.

Was being told by Boss to teach a lab tech on the basic water testing. Drank 2.5 Litres of water each day cuz my throat felt super dry after talking a whole day. Had some language barrier with him and that fellow kept bugging me. Trying to test my patience ah? I have little patience and now I have made up my mind that teaching adults is the last thing I ever wanna do. I realised I am not good at teaching either. Teaching cute little pre-school kids is alright but not teens or adults who are impatient and way too TOO curious. loLz

Met up with clasmates to celebrate KW birthday on friday evening. We ate at Soup Restuarant and the food was not bad. I can't get enough of Crysanthemun (dunno how to spell) Tea and the boiled soup. The sea cucumbers were my favourite too.

The weather is extremely good this whole weekend. With the occasional cool breeze and showers of rain. Superb weather to just nuah and slack. Dunno what most people prefer to do on such weather but there are some which I enjoy and yearn for..

1. Cuddling my blanket and listening to the raindrops splashing on the window

2. Looking far out of the stained windows and enjoy the sea scenes at the distant

3. Hugging my sister and sleeping together on the same bed

4. Enjoying a nice breakfast, sipping a warm cup of tea and reading the newspaper's LIFE section

5. Lay on the couch and watch my favourite Korea or Jap Drama

6. Pizza order

I had done most of them when I was young and certain nostalgia came back to me. Some seems most unlikely to achieve and I took those for granted when I was still young. Our life revolves around work, studies, freinds, etc. But to think about it, have we ever sit back, relax and marvel at the wonders of nature..to immerse in simplicity and joys of nature? lOlz..sounds rather abstract and even no-link but of wadeva reasons these are just my childhood memories.

A group of TP students came to the company for IA too. Mostly are guys and they are of the same course as me and Jasper. TP guys are not bad though..spiky and styled hair, reasonable outfits and the bags they carry look kinda weird but unique. There's one Peranakan guy who has this Chinese cum Malay cum Eurasian face. Overall, he is rather friendly. haHa. I am not obsess over them cuz anyway I am not their cup of tea. They are seeking real Chio Bu and I am juz a normal plain Jane and girl-next door. Next week, another batch of new student will arrive and my lab will be packed with students and guess wat..I can't breathe cuz it's too stuffy and "saturate" with carbon dioxide. Just imagine a school of fish swimming in one small tank.. I will be the first fish to float up. I am lost and worry..worry for several reasons. Gotta adapt again and I will survive..I am a survivor..just like Beyonce's song (Survivor).

I heard of Mary J. Blige's Song (No More Drama). Realli hate those bad soap dramas in my life. I thought I was a victim of such events but I believe my parents are the greatest victims. So tired and frustrated of such drama, I don't mind nice drama in my life but life is never a sweet bed of roses. You gotta grow up and be stonger through those ferocious waves that churned out in life. Everyone shares their stories of bitter and sweet life..and mine is just a minor case. muaHaha..

I went out with SQ and JX during the weekends. Can't imagine walking around Orchard and Suntec just to get some disposable stuffs..SQ, very funni ah? I think I crap too much about JX's coming birthday this year. Whole load of stuffs like organising a Lion Dance Ceremony starring me, SQ and ahem..JX's favourites. JX didn't like sour tomato stuff, so muz apologise to her for ordering some sour chicken pasta for her cuz I didn't know it. Next time I won't order liaoz. Haha. Although we were almost half dead by the end of the day but we managed to get our targeted stuffs. So guess there's no regrets after all. Something for me to note when going for full day delirious shopping => wear comfortable footwear, bring lotsa plaster, a bottle of water and a wheelchair if needed in emergency.

I saw a nice florist shop around Lavender Street area last week..

And saw a poster at the Buddhist Centre..

" We must face the facts and accept what that might be coming to us"

Nothing much to write so I just drew some pictures.

How nice it would be if there's at least one public holiday each month. For the month of May, I had 2 PH, tat's super nice cuz I can make use of these PH to catch up with frens and colleague's mood always seem to be better during the eve of such occassion. But sadly, after May there's no PH until my IA finishes. GSS juz started but I feel so "mentally poor". Hmm..besides spending quite alot on frens' presents, I had ultimately no wadeva mood to go for any shopping spree. And shopping being my favourite pastime, I seriously dun feel like buying wat-so-eva now even when designer or branded labels are offering like 70-80% off.

Sometimes at the end of the day, I will be on the bus thinking what I'm lacking now. I don't feel happy and I'm juz unable to solve this happiness puzzle. I mean I'm a complete person with a great family (although parents had those arguments sometimes), nice frens, nice home and I dun have to worry about a lot of financial woes (like water and electricity bills, income taxes, house loans, credit card bills etc) for the time being. Of cuz, after I enter working life I have the responsiblity to support my parents and myself. To climb up the social ladder is a crazy rat race and to juggle both work and family is another physical and mental challenge. Perhaps is due to the fact that I'm turning 20 real soon in like a couples of years or that my parents' white hair are multiplying oOps exponentially I gueSs..which puts me in a position to think real hard of my future plans and what career path I should lead.

Mayb like wad a buddy told me...my unhappiness of my experience in IA and me seeing other workers working 14 hrs each day as unbelievable..are cuz that I'm still young and haven't had enuff fun yet so I see such stuffs as a torture and no-life.

I went out on the eve of Vesak Day and somehow I was so eager to c Joey. Lolz..She treated me to Swensen, wow had being a long time since I ate western food. She insisted on eating ice-cream with me even when she's nursing a bad cough. T_T In the end I feel so guitly that I acc her to buy some herbal medicine. Seriously the day ended so short la and soon we had to go home. But we still enjoyed a great crapping session in her hubby's Mazda. Real cool car lo with great horsepower and speed. RaWks to e max!

Two of the Three Flowers left the company recently. I expected some drama mama and drama papa on that day but the day juz ended normally. Lotsa presents and tidbits are still lying ard the lab. Haha. That day after work, I bidded farewell to the head officer and asst officer of Three Flowers. My heart was warmed when the asst officer said a simple yet sweet "Take Care" to me. I nodded and said yes like an innocent sch kid before making my exit.

Over the weekends, chatted wif classmates at Vivo. Actually suppose to watch Song of the Sea at Sentosa but fully booked liaoz so had no choice. Had a great bonding session and ate Pasta Mania for dinner with all of them. waHaha

A week in company with Jasper solely had just ended. No more were the days when we had the companion of the other IA students and the thrill of talking crap during lunch hours. I am still trying to get use to this strange and lonely environment but when I think that this whole IA thing will be ending soon in few months time..well, at least it brought me some physological comfort and ray of hope in my current life. Heard that the new batch of IA students are arriving soon in around 3 weeks times but it doesn't make any impact on us though. There are always workers making their new entrance and final exit in this company (temporary staffs, students etc) that it has brought some sorta impermanance scenario to this office.

Most of the workers in lab have the flu virus and you can see people coughing, sniffing, clearing their thoats and some uncles spitting their thick phelgm into the sink during breaks. And the terrible thing is the air-con in the lab which means => the virus spreads even faster. So ya, I was caught with this virus the whole week and had to battle with it. Feel so sick la, my thoat was as dry as desert and my whole body rose to heating tempearture sometimes. The phelgm sticked to the side of my throat like some slimy irritating bug and my cough sounded like a toad croaking. *yUcks to tHe maX*

I had just completed watching the Taiwan Drama 白色巨塔 (The Hospital). It was shown on Channel U but had no time to watch it weekly so someone was so kind to lend me the whole Drama Box Set. The beginning was super exciting, especially the cases of the President's Daughter, traid's boss and the scandal between one of the senior doctor and news reporter. I was like wow..there were so much drama within a hospital or as they called it, the white tower. The middle part of this drama turned out to be a spoiler as it's way too draggy. But once I reached the final few episodes, it just warmed my heart. The director had placed a nice ending and what admired me most was the courage of Su Yi Hua, Qiu Qing Cheng and Guan Xin. The Taiwanese version of The Hospital is not as brilliant as the Japanese version, but well, it still has its nice plot.

The drama ended with a few words that I find it kinda true in today's context:

人生其实是一场骗局

到了最后你就会发现

原来最重要的都会变成最不重要的

From cina Website

Spotted some comical and cute poses from my hamster. Lolz..

Friday was the last day of the other attachment students. Kinda sad cuz I will b rather lonely without them around. But that's life, have to face it too. During lunch hour, I thought my department would be having a lunch treat for all of us..but there was none. But strange thing was the other department treated us to free pizzas instead. I later found out that the Three Flowers have a private buffet dinner with the other student instead. Well, as expected I am left out from their treats. It doesn't really matter to me cuz I have this feeling of their certain preferences in male workers than females. Or perhaps, I have some EMO or attitude problem that they dislike. Well, in either cases I shall not speculate much since they are leaving soon too and why make my life more miserable with such futile speculation?

While life is a little screwed lately, there is still this tiny bit of comfort in reading up books that motivate and upbeat my mood. Okies..I may seem like a nerdy and no-life gal. But hmm, in the midst of such life, where else can I seek comfort and true assurance from? I even have this crazy idea of signing up for Yoga Sessions cuz my whole body aches like mad whenever I reach home and my posture is no where better. LolZ

Over the weekends, I met up with Da Ge to pass him some appreciation token from my parents and he treated me, SQ and JX to lunch. SQ blushed like a tomato (yeah!! I'm not the onli tomato existing) when I told Da Ge that SQ is from Korean. Nearly got stangled by SQ but managed to survive miracalously.

We then headed to shop for stuffs. This month is my "eat bread and drink water" month cuz so many friends have their birthday this month. I really feel the pinch on my wallet *oUch* I bought a necklace for a gal friend from SooKee. Seriously, it's the most expensive gift I ever bought but cuz she helped me a lot during my most helpless times and this is my first gift for her, it should be something nice and memorable.. I guess.

We went to shop for SQ's watch and waHaha..now I finally know what is her favourite colour. JX wanted to buy The Da Vinci Code DVD for one of her uncles at the workplace but there was no stocks. I saw many Jap Drama in the store and was super estatic and high. I spotted a nice drama starring Ayase Haruka but have no money, terribly a sad case, so I have to give it a miss and purchase them once I have enough money and have recovered this month's losses.

Just watched Nada Sou Sou (Tears for You) and tears just flowed. The movie is seriously no tearjerker which I expect from those Korea drama but I am just moved to tears by how closely-related this movie is to me.

The movie tells the story of two non-biological siblings Yota and Kaoru living under the same roof in Okinawa. Yota made a promise to his ailing mother that he would take care of his little sister, Kaoru. He worked hard and struggled to see Kaoru to College. Hmm..I shall not go into details but what left me baffled was the ending of the movie. At the age of 25, Yota passed away due to Myocarditis, the same mysterious acute virus inflammation that killed one of my dearest loved one.

The ending song (Nada Sou Sou) of the movie was even more surreal and I just couldn't control my emotion any longer. It was sang by Rimi Natsukawa and was later sang by Joi Chua. The song partly expressed the inner voice in me. It was only when I saw the English translation of the Japanese lyrics screened at the end of the movie that I finally understood what this whole song was all about.

I whisper gratitude as I flipped through this old photograph album

To one who always cheered me on, within my heart

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

It would return one day

In days when I search for a glimpse of your face, stream of tears flow

Almost a habit now, I wish upon the very first star

Looking within the evening skies for you with all my heart

The memories of that smile of yours that I think of, in sorrow or joy

And if you can see me, from where you are

I’ll live on, believing that someday we’ll reunite

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

In loneliness and yearning - my feelings for you remains

A stream of tears

If only we could meet, if only we could meet

Of how much I missed you

A stream of tears

I thought I can forget about the past and move on with life. I thought it would be damn easy. But after watching this movie, it was like an indication that you are somewhere around although your presence can't be felt. My apologies for being so dramatic and emotional. Perhaps some of you will believe I am too sensitve and immature in some sense cuz there are so many people out there who lost their loved ones every day. But these are just some of my thoughts..since females are emotional beings..loLz.

Recently, my mind is brewing with troubles and my heart is restless *gEez* I took comfort in working in lab cuz at least my mind will stop running wild and work provides me with a temporary anaesthetic to numb all sensation. The other IA students are leaving soon on 18th May, kinda missed them espcially my xiao shifu since he taught me quite a lot. After 18th May, the company will only be left with Jasper and I as IA students until the next batch of new students arrive again.

Finished reading "The Five People you Meet in Heaven". It gave me a glimpse of heaven and how important everyone is in my life. Due to me being impatient and once again displaying my "auntie" qualities, I purchased Mitch Albom's two other titles when I heard from Yi Jia that Popular is offering a 20% off all his titles.

Gonna devour his books soon *squeal in delights*

Thursday was elder sister's birthday. Happy birthday to you and may your soul be blessed for eternity! Love ya lots..Muackies. (I am straight hor and dun walk crooked road..muahaha)

On that similar day, I took leave from work and thought I could enjoy a day of retreat from the hassle and bustle of life. Once I woke up, Jasper left me with a missed call..and my sixth sense told me something was amiss. So I sms him " You didn't tap my card hor." (My company has this policy of tapping our card to record our clock in and clock out from work every day). Then Jasper sms me back " Call me la."

My heart went through a sudden tremour of shock.

Jasper: ExxonMobil had an serious explosion leh..and there are people dead

Me: Huh, is it very serious and are KW, SQ they all fine (my thoughts ran wild)

Jasper: Hmm..i sms them and they are fine. You sms them again ba.

Me: Oh, ok.

Jasper (with a long pause): Eh...i tapped your card this morning.

Me: But I am not working today ma. Then how, my supervisor will sure ask me to explain about my attendance today.

Jasper: But I tap your card out again a few minutes later. You just tell him that you dunno who tapped your card lo.

Me: Huh, okie. But I did remind you many times that I will not be going to work today.

Jasper: Aiya, my memory is poor and I am not good with numbers..you see.

Me: Oh ya hor, is alrite.

On that similar night after I settled all my family matters and was back home, I received another sms from him again " Call me if you're free." Sighz, how many times must I call him and I am 100% sure that it's not something good either. I reluctantly called him and was wondering why must I received so many unexpected new at one shot.

Jasper: Tell you something, you don't be sad k.

I feel like hanging the phone immediately...

Me: What? Tell me lo.

Jasper: There are people in our company who are saying that this batch of NP students' performance are not as good as the previous batch.

Me: Who told you?

Jasper: Eric they all lo.

I have done and tried my best in work and so does Jasper. So lets take this as a feedback from them and continued to work harder. My rice bowl does not depends on them and I will listen to dad's advice for once: Don't take life too seriously and don't choose to let such rumours or news ruin your goals in life. 你要快乐的追求人生而不是追求快乐的人生. Thanks a lot for your advice.

There are plenty of rumours in office lately and rumours are really POISONOUS and TOXIC. A large lethal dosage of rumours is harmful for health if you choose to believe and worry over them. People are saying that San Duo Hua (Three Flowers) are resigning soon from my lab. Initially, they said it was middle of this year but later it soon became either end of this month or 2 months from now. At first I choose not to believe but after seeing the "political upheaval" in the lab and workers being assigning new tasks..how can I choose not to believe?

The absence of San Duo Hua in the lab means great changes, some negative and some positive. The uncles mentioned casually to me that my workload will perhaps be heavier. But that really depends on whether my boss or the San Duo Hua is willing to teach me new tasks since I'm not a permanent worker there. I am kinda worry cuz if my workload is reduced further, it will affect my reports. But if it means the opposite, then it would mean better prospectives.

Recently being watching the TVB Drama " Under the Canopy of Love" and it's superb drama that touches on family ties, friendship, office politics and how fate and destiny can bring about romance. The theme song is great so wanna share it with all of you. Haha.

I was waiting for bus to work one day when I saw NP shuttle bus at e opposite bus stop. Certain nostalgia came back to me and I had this tearing thought of returning to sch immediately. I miss those days when I had to attend lectures, to eat at SIM foodcourt and the occasional bus rides wif Ying Jie back home. ~miss SIM Food greatly~

Like what Hanjuan said (sorri mushroom ah, hv to quote u haha) " We have a lifetime to work so better treasure the school days." I heard so many cases of working adults who wish to further their studies and return to schools. Even the uncle at my lab mentioned about the thrills of studying and how he wished to study again. loLz..

I received the news early this week that the juniors from my secondary school's Guzheng Ensemble clinched Gold Award for SYF. Shu Wen sent me the video clip of their last rehearsal and wow..it blew me over. Congrats Juniors, your hard work had paid off and the award had shown your determination and professionalism. I am so happy for you gals!

Parents bought Value Pack Ice Cream from Venezia. So touched cuz all 3 flavours are my favourite..green tea, strawberry and lemon sorbet.

Watched "200 Pounds Beauty" with Jiang Xin and Hanjuan. It's a great, light hearted and touching movie. The leading actress had this very sweet voice that oOh..melts my heart like caramel. Indeed beauty is only skin deep. Then we headed down to Toa Payoh for a talk at Sunshine Empire only to find out that the talk was cancelled. I felt kinda dejected but managed to purchase Ayumi's Best White Album which came along with a promotional mega size poster and that cheered me up. One thing that baffled me was the way the music store promotes Ayumi's double album. Why not have sth like a 10% discount off when you purchase the BLACK & WHITE Album. I mean this way they can clear their stocks faster and not face slow sales rate. But anyway is juz my opinions la..perhaps they have their reasons or better sales ideas.

Ayumi looks gorgeous in this sexy pose. I had heard rumours that Ayumi is experiencing decline popularity in Japan as Koda Kumi is too HOT. But who cares cuz I still prefer Ayumi Hamasaki as she rocks and her songs are much better.

Had a gastric flu bout on friday. Dunno what's wrong with my stomach but it juz refuses to perform as expected. T_T This gastric flu syptom has been an old stomach habit of mine and will act up at unexpected moments...which is oH so Damn it. I visited the toilet countless times and feel like puking whenever the smell or sight of food is around me. Guess I have make a nice ally with toilets and perhaps I shld even invest in some toilet buisness in the near future. LOL. I wanted to take half-day leave but dropped the idea since it was a friday. So I "tahang" the whole day in lab lo.

Friday air always seems to be better and my mood swings become less frequent. Someone says I am especially EMO on Monday which I completely agree with him/her. Haha.

Thanks a lot to Yi Jia and Yong Zen for giving me the doughnuts from Vinco's. Call me a country bumpkin or mountain turtle but I dunno much about doughnuts. The only kinda doughnuts I ever know are those plain sugar or chocolate with colourful sugar kinds. WaHaha. The doughnuts from Vinco's were yummy and had a soft and crunchy taste. My taste buds are craving for more.

I went to Peck San Teng （碧山亭）and Kuan Yin Mountain （观音山..direct translation lol）during the weekend with parents for Qin Ming Festival to pray ancestors. It rained heavily on that day so the weather was less humid. When I was young, the sight of urns and burning paper were a douuble horror to me. Especially when I had to hold the joss sticks and pray to my grandma in this errie hallway. But now I'm more impressed by the ancient yet serene architecture of such temples.

Being reading "The Five People You Meet in Heaven" lately. It's a great book with inspirational thoughts that touches my heart. I came across this sentence:

"You say you should have died instead of me. But during my time on earth, people died instead of me, too. It happens every day. When lightning strikes a minute after you are gone, or an airplane crashes that you might have been on. When your colleague falls ill and you don't. We think such things are random. But there's a balance to it all. One withers, another grows. Birth and death are part of a whole."

A monk once told me that all babies are awaiting death once they are born and that death is inevitable. Hmm, indeed it's true.

Slacking in his tunnel

Being doing the routine stuffs for 5 wks liao. Haha..can't imagine that I have not touched SVOC and those ''Cha-Cha" separating funnels for such a long time. I miss them greatly.Working with Uncle Chong is great and at least he's more approachable. Some workers there are dampening my mood by providing such comments:

1. You can't learn much from Uncle Chong

2. I feel pity for you..sighz

3. Why are you still working with him for such a long time, you shld be learning new stuffs

But let me put this clear, is not that I don't wish to learn new stuffs but they just don't offer me the chance. Almost every day, I offer my help politetly to Senior TO and the reply is so expected " There's nth for u to do today." or " I will inform u when there's work"..(which ends up as a lie). So I will say OK and hunt for new things to learn from others since she doesn't own the whole lab. Bleahz.

It's so strange how coldly she treats me. Sometimes she smiles at me but at other times she just gives me a cold shoulder. I am not complaining about any unfair treatment but I just don't get it on why she will rather do those work herself. I didn't screwed up her last job the previous time.

And here I shall disclose my top 3 "Pissed My Mood" list..lOlz

1. Stomach cramps

2. Threats

3. People who snaps at you when he/she is in a bad mood even though you're the innocent party

The excruciating stomach cramp started on thursday and I visited the toilet for countless times. The pain was just like someone tying a thick rope around my stomach and pulling me back tightly every few minutes. If I had a choice I wld rather pull out a knife and stabbed myself like a Samurai..bidding Sayonara to them. Haha..sorri for being so sadist.

I hate threats..especially when some old fella asks u to wash bottles and threatens to make ur life miserable and report to ur supervisor if u failed to do so. I don't mind washing stuffs or mopping floors but pls PLS dun use threats on IA students to resolve such issues. It really irriatates me a LOT.

See how accurate this forecast was " Make sure you don't respend to ppl who want to pull you into an emotional wrangle..being brutal could be the only way." Think I gotta Think and Act Smart, be less gullible and emotional at times. Jia You!!! 困难挫折打击不了一颗坚定不移的心 (GM James Phang)

Went to East Coast for cycling cum BBQ on Saturday. It was super relaxing and calming when I saw the sea and sky. I felt so carefree and the atmosphere was so much less tensed than that lab. Even how difficult life seems there's always this little bit of emotional comfort and serenity ard. *sMiles*

Muz apologsie to JX..you're my first passenger on the double bike but I juz dun have the stamina to ride. But at least we have fun rite..and Jie Jie came to our rescue. Haha.

SQ and KW's colleague was so nice to drive us home. Thanks a lot Milton.

Light turns to darkness
Darkness turns to silence
Silence forces unspeakable truth

Clinging on to the fragile and faint hope of life
But yet it shrivels

In fornloness, lonliness and regrets
There's a undying voice within an innocent soul
Pleading to be freed of all torments

Time waits for nobody
Plead not for time to unwind
Plead not for guardian angels

After each rain
The sun appears
In adversity
See not a cup as half emptied
But as half fulled


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Being dreaming of her lately, although the dreams are getting fainter but I still wake up in cold sweat. Is it an answer telling me to move on with life but not to forget about her? I obviously have no definite answer cuz it's juz too abstract. Mayb is juz me tinking too much cuz like wat Wen Fang told me before.. I am a person who tinks too much all e time n I shld learn to relax. Haha..Life is a vexing puzzle.

Wednesday started quite ok until the Senior TO pull a long face. Dun wish to explain this lame incident but it obviously tells me more about ppl in working life. Apologised to her and she lectured me awhile before I continued wif my work. I m feeling stressed wif her ard and my heart skips a beat whenever I do sth wrng. Gotta get used to life there and start complaining less. Cuz someone says I m a complain queen..muaHaha. Luckily some students there are quite supportive.

New bird still getting used to e new env

Went out wif godsis this wk and was treated to lunch cum dinner at Sakae Sushi. Gosh..i ate alot. My stomach was full of salmon, rice and green tea. Had a unique shopping experience wif her. Indeed, cash is power and being more affluent means that the places you shop are different. She taught me some real lessons in life and cleared my doubts abt MLM.

Hanjuan's BBQ Birthday

Hanjuan.. the birthday gal

Went for Hanjuan's 21st birthday bash on the last day of march. I met up with friends at the train station and somehow, I just couldn't stop talking and teasing them. Time really does fly and indeed absence makes the heart fonder. I really miss u peeps and this bonding session or wadeva u call it..muahaha..is really enjoyable and the best time of my week. I was so exicited (goodness..dunno for wat reason) to catch up with friends and of cuz to take a break frm mundane ''no life'' week.

Before the start of the BBQ, Hanjuan sat wif us on one e cove at ECP and we managed to persuade her to wear the brand new sports jacket we bought fot her. K..tat's the moment when I was being v lame and crappy due to the influence of SQ and MR. KL lo. LOlz..

I saw Shin's new Motorola HP and was super amazed by how slim and convenient it was. Then KW took a video of me called the "Bok-Bok-Bok Vibrating phone". I feel so malu la after watching tat video. GeeZ

The birthday gal proceeded on wif her "Thank You" speech which she did standing high on e stool. Haha..remind me of some impt parliament speech. She desperately wanted to end her speech asap so Hanjuan cut it short wif a simple senetence " can we cut the cake?" Everyone started roaring in laughter and I ended up wif fits of hiccups and burps.

Leftovers frm e BBQ

Had a great buffet of grilled chickens and prawns, mushrooms, salad, fizzy drinks and cakes.

Back home on the train..wif some unknown person third from right. Look at shin, QY and KL faces and u noe tat once again I didn't manage to take their pictures secretly.