A week in company with Jasper solely had just ended. No more were the days when we had the companion of the other IA students and the thrill of talking crap during lunch hours. I am still trying to get use to this strange and lonely environment but when I think that this whole IA thing will be ending soon in few months time..well, at least it brought me some physological comfort and ray of hope in my current life. Heard that the new batch of IA students are arriving soon in around 3 weeks times but it doesn't make any impact on us though. There are always workers making their new entrance and final exit in this company (temporary staffs, students etc) that it has brought some sorta impermanance scenario to this office.

Most of the workers in lab have the flu virus and you can see people coughing, sniffing, clearing their thoats and some uncles spitting their thick phelgm into the sink during breaks. And the terrible thing is the air-con in the lab which means => the virus spreads even faster. So ya, I was caught with this virus the whole week and had to battle with it. Feel so sick la, my thoat was as dry as desert and my whole body rose to heating tempearture sometimes. The phelgm sticked to the side of my throat like some slimy irritating bug and my cough sounded like a toad croaking. *yUcks to tHe maX*

I had just completed watching the Taiwan Drama 白色巨塔 (The Hospital). It was shown on Channel U but had no time to watch it weekly so someone was so kind to lend me the whole Drama Box Set. The beginning was super exciting, especially the cases of the President's Daughter, traid's boss and the scandal between one of the senior doctor and news reporter. I was like wow..there were so much drama within a hospital or as they called it, the white tower. The middle part of this drama turned out to be a spoiler as it's way too draggy. But once I reached the final few episodes, it just warmed my heart. The director had placed a nice ending and what admired me most was the courage of Su Yi Hua, Qiu Qing Cheng and Guan Xin. The Taiwanese version of The Hospital is not as brilliant as the Japanese version, but well, it still has its nice plot.

The drama ended with a few words that I find it kinda true in today's context:

人生其实是一场骗局

到了最后你就会发现

原来最重要的都会变成最不重要的

From cina Website

Spotted some comical and cute poses from my hamster. Lolz..

Friday was the last day of the other attachment students. Kinda sad cuz I will b rather lonely without them around. But that's life, have to face it too. During lunch hour, I thought my department would be having a lunch treat for all of us..but there was none. But strange thing was the other department treated us to free pizzas instead. I later found out that the Three Flowers have a private buffet dinner with the other student instead. Well, as expected I am left out from their treats. It doesn't really matter to me cuz I have this feeling of their certain preferences in male workers than females. Or perhaps, I have some EMO or attitude problem that they dislike. Well, in either cases I shall not speculate much since they are leaving soon too and why make my life more miserable with such futile speculation?

While life is a little screwed lately, there is still this tiny bit of comfort in reading up books that motivate and upbeat my mood. Okies..I may seem like a nerdy and no-life gal. But hmm, in the midst of such life, where else can I seek comfort and true assurance from? I even have this crazy idea of signing up for Yoga Sessions cuz my whole body aches like mad whenever I reach home and my posture is no where better. LolZ

Over the weekends, I met up with Da Ge to pass him some appreciation token from my parents and he treated me, SQ and JX to lunch. SQ blushed like a tomato (yeah!! I'm not the onli tomato existing) when I told Da Ge that SQ is from Korean. Nearly got stangled by SQ but managed to survive miracalously.

We then headed to shop for stuffs. This month is my "eat bread and drink water" month cuz so many friends have their birthday this month. I really feel the pinch on my wallet *oUch* I bought a necklace for a gal friend from SooKee. Seriously, it's the most expensive gift I ever bought but cuz she helped me a lot during my most helpless times and this is my first gift for her, it should be something nice and memorable.. I guess.

We went to shop for SQ's watch and waHaha..now I finally know what is her favourite colour. JX wanted to buy The Da Vinci Code DVD for one of her uncles at the workplace but there was no stocks. I saw many Jap Drama in the store and was super estatic and high. I spotted a nice drama starring Ayase Haruka but have no money, terribly a sad case, so I have to give it a miss and purchase them once I have enough money and have recovered this month's losses.

Just watched Nada Sou Sou (Tears for You) and tears just flowed. The movie is seriously no tearjerker which I expect from those Korea drama but I am just moved to tears by how closely-related this movie is to me.

The movie tells the story of two non-biological siblings Yota and Kaoru living under the same roof in Okinawa. Yota made a promise to his ailing mother that he would take care of his little sister, Kaoru. He worked hard and struggled to see Kaoru to College. Hmm..I shall not go into details but what left me baffled was the ending of the movie. At the age of 25, Yota passed away due to Myocarditis, the same mysterious acute virus inflammation that killed one of my dearest loved one.

The ending song (Nada Sou Sou) of the movie was even more surreal and I just couldn't control my emotion any longer. It was sang by Rimi Natsukawa and was later sang by Joi Chua. The song partly expressed the inner voice in me. It was only when I saw the English translation of the Japanese lyrics screened at the end of the movie that I finally understood what this whole song was all about.

I whisper gratitude as I flipped through this old photograph album

To one who always cheered me on, within my heart

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

It would return one day

In days when I search for a glimpse of your face, stream of tears flow

Almost a habit now, I wish upon the very first star

Looking within the evening skies for you with all my heart

The memories of that smile of yours that I think of, in sorrow or joy

And if you can see me, from where you are

I’ll live on, believing that someday we’ll reunite

And should the memories of that smile I think of fade away into the distance

In loneliness and yearning - my feelings for you remains

A stream of tears

If only we could meet, if only we could meet

Of how much I missed you

A stream of tears

I thought I can forget about the past and move on with life. I thought it would be damn easy. But after watching this movie, it was like an indication that you are somewhere around although your presence can't be felt. My apologies for being so dramatic and emotional. Perhaps some of you will believe I am too sensitve and immature in some sense cuz there are so many people out there who lost their loved ones every day. But these are just some of my thoughts..since females are emotional beings..loLz.

Recently, my mind is brewing with troubles and my heart is restless *gEez* I took comfort in working in lab cuz at least my mind will stop running wild and work provides me with a temporary anaesthetic to numb all sensation. The other IA students are leaving soon on 18th May, kinda missed them espcially my xiao shifu since he taught me quite a lot. After 18th May, the company will only be left with Jasper and I as IA students until the next batch of new students arrive again.

Finished reading "The Five People you Meet in Heaven". It gave me a glimpse of heaven and how important everyone is in my life. Due to me being impatient and once again displaying my "auntie" qualities, I purchased Mitch Albom's two other titles when I heard from Yi Jia that Popular is offering a 20% off all his titles.

Gonna devour his books soon *squeal in delights*

Thursday was elder sister's birthday. Happy birthday to you and may your soul be blessed for eternity! Love ya lots..Muackies. (I am straight hor and dun walk crooked road..muahaha)

On that similar day, I took leave from work and thought I could enjoy a day of retreat from the hassle and bustle of life. Once I woke up, Jasper left me with a missed call..and my sixth sense told me something was amiss. So I sms him " You didn't tap my card hor." (My company has this policy of tapping our card to record our clock in and clock out from work every day). Then Jasper sms me back " Call me la."

My heart went through a sudden tremour of shock.

Jasper: ExxonMobil had an serious explosion leh..and there are people dead

Me: Huh, is it very serious and are KW, SQ they all fine (my thoughts ran wild)

Jasper: Hmm..i sms them and they are fine. You sms them again ba.

Me: Oh, ok.

Jasper (with a long pause): Eh...i tapped your card this morning.

Me: But I am not working today ma. Then how, my supervisor will sure ask me to explain about my attendance today.

Jasper: But I tap your card out again a few minutes later. You just tell him that you dunno who tapped your card lo.

Me: Huh, okie. But I did remind you many times that I will not be going to work today.

Jasper: Aiya, my memory is poor and I am not good with numbers..you see.

Me: Oh ya hor, is alrite.

On that similar night after I settled all my family matters and was back home, I received another sms from him again " Call me if you're free." Sighz, how many times must I call him and I am 100% sure that it's not something good either. I reluctantly called him and was wondering why must I received so many unexpected new at one shot.

Jasper: Tell you something, you don't be sad k.

I feel like hanging the phone immediately...

Me: What? Tell me lo.

Jasper: There are people in our company who are saying that this batch of NP students' performance are not as good as the previous batch.

Me: Who told you?

Jasper: Eric they all lo.

I have done and tried my best in work and so does Jasper. So lets take this as a feedback from them and continued to work harder. My rice bowl does not depends on them and I will listen to dad's advice for once: Don't take life too seriously and don't choose to let such rumours or news ruin your goals in life. 你要快乐的追求人生而不是追求快乐的人生. Thanks a lot for your advice.

There are plenty of rumours in office lately and rumours are really POISONOUS and TOXIC. A large lethal dosage of rumours is harmful for health if you choose to believe and worry over them. People are saying that San Duo Hua (Three Flowers) are resigning soon from my lab. Initially, they said it was middle of this year but later it soon became either end of this month or 2 months from now. At first I choose not to believe but after seeing the "political upheaval" in the lab and workers being assigning new tasks..how can I choose not to believe?

The absence of San Duo Hua in the lab means great changes, some negative and some positive. The uncles mentioned casually to me that my workload will perhaps be heavier. But that really depends on whether my boss or the San Duo Hua is willing to teach me new tasks since I'm not a permanent worker there. I am kinda worry cuz if my workload is reduced further, it will affect my reports. But if it means the opposite, then it would mean better prospectives.

Recently being watching the TVB Drama " Under the Canopy of Love" and it's superb drama that touches on family ties, friendship, office politics and how fate and destiny can bring about romance. The theme song is great so wanna share it with all of you. Haha.