When parents are least understanding of your needs, you kinda feel redundant in this family. They always think money is power and thrash you with it as an easy solution to satisfy your needs. Or should I say they have erractic mood swings and their attitude change with their mood. I told them that I have a final year project to rush and would be rather busy. And what is my dad reply..can you do this and that for me, can you pack your messy room by a specific dateline, can you sleep earlier, why didn't you read your Reader Disgest, you are wasting my money subscribing it. I am sorry, can you give me some grace period. What..you can't even do a simple thing for me. Wow, I didn't know I have a specific dateline for household chores. I will say ok, then nod as they nag away about how they want this particular thing to be done. Once I show signs of disinterest, arrows shooting time start. Dad will say I always show my sulky temper and mood and that my attitude sux downright and so..it's a waste of time to talk to me about any single thing regarding family stuffs. And ya, so I am gradually left out when it comes to family matter. Alrite, it doesn't matter. Hey dad/mum, I have sth to share. You noe what people say about sharing and spending quality time with your parents. Their reaction-is your own life now, I am busy with my work. I don't understand this and that and most often- their heads turning away from the particular object that I wanna share.

Recently, had my room painted and new furnitures bought for my study room. Dad painted the room fresh lime green and violet. Overall, very satisfy with my room cuz dad put in alot of effort to paint it and had the furnitures arranged. But before that it was hell week. Dad practically put all my stuffs in the living room and my computer, as a result was disconnected. These were very much understandable. So I went about the living room searching for my stuffs which were kinda displaced and hidden somewhere. There came the time when I started hitting the books. No adequate light source since the living room's light were rather dim. No chance upon the kitchen, as it's too messy too. So each night after dad completed his painting session, I place my books and stationary back to my room. And his response was rather shocking. He started grumbling about how petty I am and started commenting like a critic " It looks like you're rushing me to finish painting the room. Since is so, I don't wanna paint your room la. Don't paint then don't paint lo."

Kinda demoralized by friday since my mum nearly freaked me out as she vommitted whole night (doc said it was food poisoning), a vey precious ball broke and by some harsh words my parents commented. Mood was better when DJ Skinny called me to chat. I heard her soothing voice through the phone and all troubles around me seem so insignificant at that particular moment.

Thurday, trained with classmates for 2.4km. Didn't manage to hit the passing grade and which means, I'm seriously unfit. Started wheezing while I ran and felt rather breatheless. Such poor stamina so my target is to train properly for my NAPFA and get beyond the bronze award. During primary school days, managed to clinched gold awards and it always seemed so easy. But during sec, stamina went downhill and each time I looked into the mirror, I see a fat orange staring back at me. haha~

On the same day, was freaking late for a birthday dinner as we spent too much time on training and didn't planned our time properly. The food there quite nice and erm..which is better than the Bao Gong XO Zi Char near my area la.

School started and although it's kinda honeymoon week for us but soon it will emerge as a terror and demanding semester. Classes are located at different areas of school which means having to walk further and which is damn sianz. But looking at the brighter side...it means exercising a little rather than just sitting on chairs and watching my tummy growing into a life-saving buoy.

Had to take NAPFA this semester, everyone is worried about it and exercising as much as possible. p.s. haven't started my exercise scheme though Guys are more worry than us as it determines their fate in BMT and NS. I heard of many scary military training stories from ex-NS guys but some are good though. All things have a balance of bad and good points I guess.

Final semester indicates many stuffs to me and my peers. We think of stuffs that we never thought of before. Career, further studies, money etc. Being of an undecisive nature, I faltered on my path to future and made decision based on my feelings rather than reason. Gotta change this habit and be more pragmatic. Realise my general knowledge on world issues is like zero so hope WISP can save me. muahaha~

Friday went shopping with classmates and CalvinKlein advertisement rocks my life. It seriously aroused my attention and wild thoughts. Was hungry by mid-afternoon maybe cuz I had porridge for lunch.

Weekend attended the CareerFair by JobsCentral, Too packed with people but managed to approached some education and employing exhibitors. Went to HSBC Insurance and met this bubbly lady called Florence. Thought she was a financial planner all the while until she told us she's a recruit manager. I wanna meet Adam Khoo and Robert Kiyosaki la. Watched Brothers during evening. Great movie with a twist to the ending but can do be better with more action and less talk.

CPTC has ended after 6 weeks of torture, thrill and teamwork. Didn't put my best effort through out the training but learned quite a lot about the kinda real life plant work here. It's not a big process plant here. But the trainers were so enthusiatic on imparting knowledge of being a fieldman and a boardman. calling boardman..send..calling fieldman..send..please open the bypass valve of LCV001..oOOkkK. That's the most frequent message during the shift training cuz C100 was always flooding. haha~

My group had lotsa capable people who were seriously very brilliant. Most of the time I would be listening and following them on how to isolate, decommission, operate the eqipments. I just can't visualize the whole plant diagram. Learned how to open those stubborn valves and overcome my fear of heights by climbing up the distillation columns. Was kinda dizzy when I was on top of the column as it was swaying with the wind. But the view up there was dazzling.

Night shift was a terror. Had to force myself to be awake at like 4am when my brain was in partial hibernate and shutdown mode. But the nice guys in my group kept us entertained with their silly jokes and JunXiang's Nintendo kept my brain working.

On Friday, had lunch with classmates at Sakura Buffet. Everyone ate like hungry wolves but the soup is nice la. Didn't had nice food for 6weeks, survived on cup noodles, bread and biscuits. Then watched Balls of Fury at Cineleisure. Hilarious comedy which tickled my stomach and laughter cells constantly. Kept breaking into hiccups of laughter by their action. Didn't noe can produce a movie with a ping-pong ball theme.

Next day, cycle with YJ, HJ, JX, SQ and JP at ECP. Packed with too many people there so can't realli enjoy the thrill of cycling freely. So many obsturctions and how I wished I had not installed that crappy basket holder on the front of my bicycle. Was shagged and hungry by evening, so had dinner at Burger King's. YJ and SQ resembled pop stars with their shades and caps. Enjoyed the cool sea breeze and tcs to the max.

Watched another Jap Eiga..Deiya Furenzu (Dear Friends). A perfect movie which moved me to tears. Touching story that reveals on the meaning of friendship. Are Friends Necessary? If only I could grab hold of Yoshi's novel here. Ayase Haruka, Erika Sawajiri & Keiko Kitagawa are brilliant actress. Most importantly, Jap dorama and eiga rocks my life completely.