Goodbye and be happy
May you be happy
さ よ う な ら
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Why make things complicated when they could be simplified, why make life a complicated puzzle when life could be made simpler? That was what an old monk told my dad after he visited him in a temple. Living our lives in lies, deceit, betrayal, fear etc, it's normal to crack our brains to solve life's complex puzzle and we use such theory to even solve everyday's problem. As for me, there's always a simpler way to do things but in the end I beat about the bush and complicate things to get the same results.
Things are getting routine as usual but am having stable income as for the time being. Sometimes sit on my desk for hours without things to do and being restless, it turns out to be a yawn. But other times are super busy. Wanted to help out with the expense report but is kind of confidential and complicated to access so for now I just do the preparation of report draft. Hate lunch time cuz sometimes no friends to lunch out together so in the end do take-away. Then my auntie collegue tried to console me by saying having lunch in the office is rather good as it provides a nice ambience with free air-con service.
Perhaps I am used to having a large company in school so getting things done myself proves kinda lonely. But life ain't perfect so it's just a give and take. And being independent to take charge of one's life is part of growing up. Can't be depending on my friends all the time to have things done in future too. Working as temp and perm is also different and of cuz your position in office is also not the same too.
Had dinner with classmates at Marina Square's Pasta de Waraku. Get to eat katsu pasta and my maccha ice-cream. Have a craving for desserts lately especially nice and delicate ones. Nice desserts tend to uplift spirits and make myself happier and energetic. Although is rather sinful and fattening. Settled at mac to chill out and tcss before heading home.
Awaiting the special month of july. Saving up for the month of may, where friends' bday are like continuous and a dinner splurge for mothers' and fathers' day too. Still waiting for that someone to appear to make my life more interesting and if you know what that means.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
When one falls into deep depression and mood swing, what should that person do? I feel my life so bleak and uninteresting. Not that kind to share problems or worries openly. On the evening of wednesday, my life went downhill and I felt so dumb and stoopid to even enter that interview. If I had tried harder but again maybe is fated that I shouldn't even choose this path. I am in a cross path right now, leaving with 3 more options and the decision is mine.
The perm admin asst staff joined us on monday and she is damn hilarious. Although she's like quite old but she's always giggling and cracking jokes. The funniest thing was the phone call she made to Thailand..sawadee kap~ For further details can ask yingjie cuz I told her the whole story and is kinda not too convenient to say here as it involves some opposite sex issues.
Had lunch with DJSkinny and her 2 colleagues. First time meeting her colleagues but they were friendly. Fancy having a shopping spree during lunch hour. Quite fun though and they really know how to spend money and pamper themselves. Happy happy swipe card then buy things. Got one of her colleague quite sweet and looks a little like fiona xie although she's little tanned.
Sorted 50+ resume and cover letter for the position of CFA and when I seen all of them, I felt so much like killing myself. But also must thank them cuz I realised what kind of people enter NBS. All from JC except one from NYP and it would never be my turn to even enter or appeal. Impressive grades and very competitive indeed. One was from EEE with a minor in entreprenuership but he was one of the lucky feel to be shortlisted for interview. At least it gave me some hope.
Was super free so glanced through the company website and saw the interview of one of the associate. Look under the one based in Singapore.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Do you have the urge to do so sometime?
I had and that started when boss came back from his manilla trip. I had to photocopy, scan and bind all documents for all people in the office. Thought it would be rather easy but when you encountered printer problem, life became a nightmare. Paper jam and scanned doc became corrupt file. I walked to and fro the printer just to get things done. Called out for SOS but everyone was busy to the max and some didn't know how to troubleshoot that printer. So I read manuals and fiddled with buttons. Tried calling the printer technician but he was away. And so, I became a technician, trying to fix scan folder, paper jam, ink toner, fax machine and photocopying problems.
Then came the most tiring thing, the photocopying and binding of double-sided documents. The printer kept showing error and I had a hard time to ensure it print double-sides. Then when I was 2/3 done, he approached me to say he preferred it one-sided. I nearly pengz.
Another tricky thing is the answering of weird calls and trying to get things done before I transfer calls to the exact person. There was a call from US and I heard something like "I am marc and I would like Pauline to know of this rRRRRRrrgrr." The phone reception was poor and I couldn't hear..coupled by some miscommunication and tada, I ended his call automatically, couldn't be bothered la. Indian accent also another chui one but prefer it rather than some ang moh rap accent. Made some last minute arrangement for hotel check-in and restaurant reservation. Luckily the customer service officer was kind enough to make arrangement or else I sure die liaoz. While my manager had to handle a more tough task to make last minute flight arrangement and cancellation. Other than that, it was rather nuah in office. Working in CBD and taking the lift and train with OL people are taxing. The way they walk is like rushing to give birth and the way they dressed is too smart to be true. But perhaps is a good exposure ba. Seriously, working at Setsco and Jefferies are two compleely different world.
Received the poly graduation letter. If only the word "congratulation" in the letter could be in another letter. If only..only if. I am still waiting patiently but felt a little pessimistic and paranoid lately. Did qin ming visit yesterday and I felt a sudden serenity. I want life to be like this and I don't want to live each day as if my water bag has burst and I need to give birth soon. But ya..my smelly feet, that wouldn't happen unless I went for some retreat in a suburb area.
Some pics to share, the sky was sort of downcast but I could see the expanse view of clark quay to boat quay and to city hall.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Working at Jefferies is an eye-opener and that comfirms how country bumpkin and country mouse I am. What's this company about..guess after binding tonnes of promotional booklet on the company profile I have memorised their message. "An investment banking and international security firm focused on helping growing and mid-sized companies and their investors" And of course, the branch in Singapore focuses on investment banking and capital marketing.
First day of work, had welcome lunch at one of the Japanese restuarant at Central with the office manager and boss. I felt so awkward and SQ said I am an alien while they are normal people.
Waiter: Who ordered coke?
Boss: nods~
Waiter places the drink in front of him
Boss: That ain't coke..coke isn't of such pale colour
Waiter was shocked and panic
Manager saw it and came over to assit him
Waiter: I am sorry, that wasn't coke but ice lemon tea
Back at office, someone from london called me. Great, his british accent was choking my ears. Fancy receiving a call from london to have your lotus mail set up. Was something new to me. Then another thing is the set up of AOL messenger. People in office communicate through that and even when we are like few tables away, they send messages instead of talking directly.
One unbelievable thing is the international conference calls made almost every day. I can hear people from all around the world discussing with my colleagues on some investment project and deals. The most CHUI one was when I handled an oversea call from a lady at Mumbai, India. Hardly understand what she was talking and I didn't know how to connect her to the main conference call. Then my ears were bombarded with finance terms like SGX, asset management, EPS, book value, equity, M&A, MAS etc when they had meetings or discussion. Clients from around the world visit the company for meetings each day and my colleagues are always so busy. They fly to overseas as if they are taking MRT.
As they were busy and I am bounded and secluded to my own desk, life was kinda boring. Nobody to chat with and having lunch alone. They do not have lunch together often as their lunch hours are irregular. Ya..since I am just a temp so who cares and bother to break the ice with me. Made some orders for office pantry, did some ad-hoc admin duties, read equipment manuals and crack my brain to convert excel to lotus123 format. Auditors came and they reminded me of the NKF/RenCi thingy as they checked through the accounts.
Friday was kinda unexpected. I was the earliest and the mood was lighter as they had chats with one another and even laughed. Working with US people and ABC people..and I tend to hear curses ranting in the office. Well, everyone is like speaking English la and is so hard to speak Chinese with them. Had a hard time conversing with them as their English are powerful. Just working for 5 days and I felt so tired and weak.
Went for the SMU interview and nearly pengz. Felt so much like retreating and surendeering after I realised in a group of 8 interviewees, I am the only one from poly. I am like competing a place with people from Hwa Chong, NJC, ACJC, RJC etc. The interview lasted for a whooping 1.5 hours. The first part was a seminar-like group discussion on Clean Up your Act in Cyberspace from the financial post. Then the next is to write an essay on any topics (future challenges, good governance, identity, political leader, social issue, news and media). People from JC are in good position as they had GP before. Then me leh, haven't wrote an essay for like few years and have no GP techniques to present. But overall, managed to clicked with the JC people and they were friendly. We exchanged phone numbers and had a short chat after the interview. Then I had a longest chat after 5 days of this week with a girl called Xing Miao through out the train ride.
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