Well, my terror week (Part one) has just ended. A 'chui' and 'xiong' week. Although I know nobody would be willing to hear or even read about my chronological events but I don't care,I still would like to post. wahaha~

Monday woke up early to discuss project then have fallacy presentation in the afternoon.Kena shoot by prof on my fallacies, tried my best to defend myself and someone did help me defend my point strongly to put stuffs across in the end. Tuesday woke up for morning lesson and weekly quiz. Had another project meeting at evening which ended at like 10pm. People still thought I am a part-time student while I carried my books and laptop on the last train home.

Wednesday was better and I spent most of my time to prepare individual project. Thursday morning had another presentation. That day was freaking cold and the air-con was at full blast. I was shivering bitterly while presenting. The prof told everyone to get up and do some warm-up exercise to fight the chill..pretty lame but it worked a little. As usual of the school's culture, our group was bombarded with Q&A from class. How do I describe this scenario? Well, it reminded me of 10 Mr Ong-s shooting us during our FYP for PED and at the same time grading our performance. Had another project meeting in the afternoon and was so super tired that I dozed off in the bus back home. Did a final 'chiong' to 'beautify' my individual project when I reached home.

Friday woke up damn early to have consultation with prof on our philosophy paper. Although I was really tired and the weather was too nice to sleep, I still had to forced myself to wake up. Couldn't quite imagine doing my philosophy paper without any help or consultation..don't feel any sense of security. Attended afternoon lesson then had another project meeting till evening.

Saturday I was a 'guai' student and mug at home for test. Discussed the paper with peers online and through phone. Brain couldn't quite absorb information but the thought of staring blankly at the difficult paper was enough to compel me to mug harder. Sunday was 'enter battle-field day' as I had to take the philosophy paper. Dunno why but my head was spinning, my vision was blurred and my heartbeat rate was very fast while I waited outside the hall. I thought I was about to faint or died. Perhaps I didn't have ample sleep the night before. After the test, had creativity project meeting and it was the most hilarious one. Two grown-up men playing with dolls and dislocating the dolls' limbs and head.

Well, that's my life and sorry if I bored you with my events. I am still tired, in fact too tired to even know the feeling of been tired. These few weeks would be crazy, at least crazy in my sense. Anyway, students are getting pissed off by the lack of sleep. Imagine coming back on a sunday, where's my bloody weekend? Anyway, thanks evil-fatty for driving me to school this morning.

Well, my blog is getting quite dead these days..wahaha. Anyway, for those who are concerned on whether I am dead or alive, I am still pretty alive but drowning soon in the midst of all the datelines. This is really and indeed the start of my chiong-ing project and report period. I am so exhausted and nauseous from this chunkful loads of feeding process. But I am growing to adapt and trying to enjoy the process no matter how much I detest. Cuz I realize you have to enjoy such stuffs in order alleviate from exhaustion.

Before I start talking crap and in circle, hmm..I just watched this really cool movie on Enron-The Smartest Guy in the Room during one of my lesson. The Enron bankruptcy followed by the fall of accounting firm Arthur Andersen, what's next..a movie on Lehman Brothers? You know what, I love this nice phase from Jeff Skilling:

Professor at Havard: Tell me, why do you think you're intelligent and we should accept you?

Skilling: Cuz I'm f***ing intelligent and I am

Recently, I am very interested in Canto pop for dunno what reasons and into lolita fashion. Trust me, if there's a cosplay festival or something, I would be more than happy to dress up as lolita. Of cuz provided, I am dressing up as lolita with a group of people..yesh a GROUP (and I found at least one person who does share this interest). Lolita fashion is a damn hot craze but seriously..not everyone can dress up as lolita decently and yet be kewl~ and kawaii. Perhaps lolita gives me an escape from realistic world and into kiddy dreamland.

Love this..Gothic Lolita.

That's the end of my break and the next one would be at the end of the year, a longer stretch one. Hoho~ Well, I should say one week does past very soon but at least I manage to get some good rest and need not wake up so early for lessons (despite the fact that I still need to return to school to settle some projects).

For those who are working, it's the night shift part. For those who are in NS, it's the training, physical and mental part. And for those who are studying, it's obviously the study and time management part. Each time we have class gatherings, everyone seems to have different topics to share and a common topic could barely last for as long as we did previously. I have to admit that primary, sec and poly days are the best years of my life, I even had time to cycle weekly. But now, such luxury of time and pursue of interests seem out of question though.

Recently, I realised some things which I didn't experience before. Some are shocking truths while others are part of 'adaptation mode'. I am not sure whether that lies in my character or instincts but I am glad I discovered them early and am able to curb such stuffs from progressing erractically. Let not my mind be over-occupied with such study stuffs, I mean life is more than that. Is about music, arts, sports, culture and even food. Not sure whether anyone watched Accuracy of Death, but I agree with Chiba..the grim reaper, that one of the greatest invention of human is music. Chiba is a good grim reaper and even if I were his subject of death, I wouldn't complain just as Kazue didn't complain.

Many things happened..ok, not many in the sense of MANY but maybe some of MANY. Things that concern myself and of people around me. Sometimes life is so full of unexpected surprises and why do people only cherish nice moments when they are in the brink on losing them? Good times spent with friends, enjoyable and carefree life of yesteryear, happy times with closed ones. Another thing is procastination. Everyone faces that in some period of life and it occurs to me often when I am too tired of the workload or projects. I just want to rest and although I am feeling nervous and succumb to huge sense of urgency, I just keep telling myself, it's ok I will get back to it later and finish it soon.

Monday left me confused with all the thinking skills (If P then Q equals to P only if Q, if not Q, then not P, not P or Q so not Q or P). Can you tell me whether I have some common senses? Then wed mug for test and thurs was a utter disappointment. Mediocre student. I realised something is really wrong. The great amount of hard work or mugging you put doesn't equate to similar successes. You have to adopt good SMART study habits..lame ya? But something I am trying to work on.

Something is also amiss. Although I am really emo and feel the world crashing with the need of burrowing my head into the sand pit, I still don't give a damn and can still present my best smile to people. Something is really wrong with me I suppose so.

Some thing to cheer myself. I was a 'secretary' for my group project as assigned by that bunch of crappy guys. They say I should be a secretary cuz I am a female and cuz my handwriting is better than all of them. Have you ever seen how an Engineering student writes notes and arranges meetings.

Matilda Tao <=> Me?? sobz~

Also, I saw a great email by shin. Wonderful one, it's so inspiratonal although the meaning is logical. We just miss some good simple stuffs sometimes. I love these two.

"If we cannot love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see",

"If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life, then it means they had never tried a new thing in life".