Woke up on monday and glanced at the alarm clock. 9.30pm, eyes were wide open, quickly rushed to the toilet and mind was racing. How do I explain to Boss..Should I give them a call? Took me a few seconds to realise that I am no longer working in the company and hey..is break time for me ya.

Prepare slides and do some editing stuffs early this week but my mind was wandering. Kinda distracted and procastinating as usual. In the mood for holiday and slacking. In the end, I sat at the sofa watching rent drama and movies. Watched "Heart of Greed" finally after like so many months. Realised that TVB has so many upcoming potential rising stars and can't help but wondered what would be the fate of the old stars. Fell in love with Linda Chung's Character-Sheung Tsoi Sum. Her character was a strong and determined girl..her smile-almost dazzling and sweet. And ya..adore the character, Jackie, that played a wilful yet strong girl too.

Accompany parents to a four days Buddha's Prayer Event as part of the Hungry Ghost Festival. The last day being a saturday and final offerings being burnt. I approached the so-called Information Counter and met three old aunties sitting separately on chairs. S'pore version of SHE. Serious lo, although they are old (can be my grandmother) but their hair were a golden brown, had ear and nose peircing and were so hip. Just imagine some very chio Tai Mei on the streets..except this time they are slightly older. One had long hair, another with shoulder-length hair and the last with short and spiky hair. puNk~

On saturday, I sat just beside the offering for wandering children soul. Kinda creepy but had no choice. Felt some ticklish sensation at the bottom of my ankles..realised it was a poor hungry kitten. Talking about supernatural sights, the kitten smelled the fragrance of the freshly cooked rice, soup and buns at the offereing area, but it refused to go near it.

At the evening, the shifu and his fellow monks chanted prayers to invite the spirits. It started to rain ferociously and the wind was chilly-almost chilling the bones. There was a paper white crane and a lantern hanging on a willow tree outside. Dad said it was to guide the spirits to this location. When it was raining, the crane and lantern swinged like mad and the sight was rather..haunting. Towards the end of the chantings, I felt a sudden numbness and chilly sensation at my knees. Never had I experience wind that only blew my legs and not my whole body. I think I must the only one who fidgeted the most in my seat..all the uncles, aunties and some 20++ years old adults sat serenely on their chairs. Some even chanted the prayers like some rap la. Didn't know the old aunties had so much breathe to chant the whole prayer loudly.

Miraculously, the heavy downpour ended when the monks went to the field to burn all offerings. A day of supernatural and pious prayers.

We heard of so many stuffs that our friends or loved ones mentioned before. Some of their casual comments while others are perhaps their favourite words (yo, wat's up, bleahz) or their wishes in lives (a car, a dream condo, to earn their first 10K). You get so used to their words and presence around you that you take life for granted. When you woke up from the harsh cruelty of life, you realised that perhaps that person is gone. That person has slipped out of your life, no longer is that person gonna return as he or she has went for a long vacation. Life is so uncertain and people only grief or mourn when they miss that someone.

Got a scare when uncle called to say grandma had blood in her urine and she was in utmost pain. Grandma went to see the doc and the doc suspected that it was ya..u know..some very common terminal illness which I don't wanna mention. Took a few days to do some scanning on her and all my relatives were preparing for the worst. I was like..no Buddha, no please, not such illness, better not. Things turned out fine but doc said had to keep her condition monitored from now on. pHew~

Had a nice dinner on the eve of my birthday with DJ Skinny. She treated me to Dian Xiao Er, nice roasted duck with dangui lo. She said I was too fat so I shld not eat too much duck skin and she ate all..haha, great! Seriously, after shaking those separating funnels for extraction I realised that my arms had grown bigger, not flabby but with fair bit of meat and some muscle. And the funny thing is my right arm is bigger than my left cuz I did more work with it. Have to start exercising or else it will look weird.

She bought me some presents and I was touched to bits..it's been some time since I experineced such warmth and love.

Had a birthday dinner with Jasper, SQ, JX, Shin, KW, QY, BL, YC, KH, HJ at New York New York to celerbrate QY, Jasper and my bday. The chicken I ordered was such a large potion but yummy. Thanks all for organising this event and the gifts you all had bought. haha~

Tuesday had lunch with colleagues, including one uncle, a female and male worker, at one of the food centre near Jurong side. Cuz the uncle would be flying off to HK for holiday trip so he had a lunch treat with us. Food was not too bad, I ordered apple juice and ate lotsa meat and veggies. Kinda weird atmosphere to be eating together with them. Looks like a family with a father and 3 children..me being the youngest. lolz

Wednesday was suppose to have pasta mania cuz one of the female colleague was leaving company. But realised that pasta mania don't make delivery to our area. So ended up having pizzas for lunch. Waited for uncle YC to finish his BOD test until 8pm on that similar day and headed down to NYDC for dinner with Uncle YC, Jackie and Jasper.

Yummy..Irish Creme and Tiramisu

Friday marks the last day of IA. 6 months of work and finally it ended on that day. I gave different departments their respevtive gifts and OMG..my department ate all the stuffs I bought for them in one day. Big appetite.. Received some gifts from colleagues, was rather touched cuz they took the effort to buy them and chose my favourite colour. The start of IA was not that smooth sailing, with some comflicts and bickers with some workers there. But I sticked on to the belief that 困难挫折有一定的寿命。困难不会待久，强者必可常存。没有眼泪， 没有挫折的人生，不是真正的人生。

Mum's moodswing reached its peak yesterday. She was on the verge of breaking down and suffering depression. Many things happened and nearly collapse our family. Through these incident, I witness how weak and vulnerable my mum is, and cuz she is also undergoing menopause, she tends to veer on the pessimistic side of life. I felt how she suffered through these silent months and how her heart broke each time I lost my temper whenever she lost her mind. I made a imformal vow to her last night that was part of my responsibilty as her daughter. Although she's not fully recovered yet but at least there's me and my dad's support. so..sMilEs

Bought gifts for departments and realised..seriously, I felt that I am like a santa claus. Might as well dumped all the gifts in one red bag and booked a cab to work. Modern santa claus don't use reindeers cuz sky tax is more expensive than road tax. lOlz..lame rite, I also think so. But anyway, initially I had thought of buying gifts for individuals but to think about it carefully, I would be financially broke and so..to buy a gift to be shared among everyone would be more economical.

Last four days in company, somehow would definetly miss the cute uncles but to consider the scary workload there, it would be enough to scare me out of my wits. I reached home around 9pm after work on one of the weekdays and I nearly freaked out.

The moment I reached home, I just laid flat on the sofa and my mind was in a daze (to much chloroform?). Hope that next week would have less samples to test cuz I wanna sLacK to e max.

My dear friends especially Ying Jie would be returning to Spore soon. Can't wait to catch up with them. I am getting exhilarated over the things I may be doing during my short break. Give me some anxiety calming pills..haha. Don't even know whether I am able to execute all my plans yet. Recently, I felt rather stingy and can't bear to part with my money.

Have planned a shopping list on the items to get over the short break. Got to save more money after this gifts splurge or I may end up waiting for sponsorship in order to get the items I want.