Bless the people in China's earthquake and Myammar's cyclone

Ordinary week with no COMPUTER to work with. Had to share laptop with the other female colleague to get stuffs done and it was delirious and boring. Had to prioritise her work before mine and waiting is no exciting game to play. Crazy la, guess I have to wait for few weeks before that stoopid laptop arrives since they only shipped it from London on thurday night. If only I could bring my laptop to work but some window files are copyrighted by the IT administrator in London again. Wonder what happens if other colleagues' pc crash too? choy~

The start of the week brought many office politics and was rather interesting to see how they spread messages across. Person A tells you this, then person B and C etc tells you this and that. You could only listen and provide neutral feedback in fear of accidentally stepping on your enemies' landmine. By friday, this colleague of mine was super pissed and I eventually was stressed out too. Have to delay my lunch meeting for 15mins. Very hungry and angry woman that day.

Yi Jia has finally worked at HSBC building and I was happy to lunch out with her. No more a loner and miserable girl. Delivered some document to hitachi tower and explored the big field at chevron and other buildings. Very happening place with performances and games. I enjoyed the bustling crowd and the loud blastings of music. One colleague of mine mentions that females in banking industry especially investment banking are too aggressive and very non lady-like. Can only find chio-ones in private and capital banking. Not too sure about this myth but it seems partially true.

It's DJ Fatty meeting DJ Skinny time on thursday. DJ Skinny was nagging at me when I failed to leave office by 6.10pm and we went to celebrate her birthday after work. A normal meal and chill-out session and both of us pour out stuffs for update purposes. Now I really wonder whether sweet marriage could be happily ever after. It's been months since I met her but each encounter is always sweet and memorable.

Met SQ on friday for makan session and we were sitting besides a les couple. It felt really weird to be at esplanade as it's a hot couple spot. Saw some nice fireworks. Went into HMV store and listened to this really cool music by Sarah Mclachlen - Silence (Tiesto). My trance hormones and cells are being suppressed for months and now they are multiplying again. Oh gosh~ Listen to the lyrics and remix by Tiesto. It just pumps adranaline to my body. Of course, not everyone welcomes trance or even techno. Sarah has some other great music pieces too.

Celebrated Mother's Day last sunday and I guess everyone was happy that I treated them to a sumptous meal at Soup's Restaurant. Nice food, nice ambience, kinda slow in serving but overall a nice day out.

Collected my graduation gown at poly in the evening of tuesday. At the very last of minute, one of my colleagues had urgents stuffs for me to complete. Happily agreed cuz I can earn OT pay and he was laughing away that next time he should give me work to do at 6pm instead. It was kinda late when I left the office. Wanted to take a cab, but it's rather ridiculous to take a cab at peak hours especially in central area. Took the train down and flagged a cab around clementi area. The taxi driver was super chatty and hilarious, telling me about his life as a taxi driver, the furore of people eager to own a car, high diesel and petrol prices and of paying fees for his children's further education. Reached there around 7.30pm and I was the last and latest customers. The aunties were friendly though and asked me to take my time. She even helped me to put on my gown and hooked up the buttons. Such motherly touch.

Couldn't believe my eyes when I wore the gown. But of cuz this isn't the official graduation, there's still another one where people's throw their hats and take pictures with their families and relatives. Took the bus home and certain nostalgia came back to me. Late nights of PED in school and stuffs like that. It was a short ride from school back home which brought back many wonderful and sweet memories. Couldn't bear to leave school la~

The admin lady's laptop crashed on friday and could I say it was really like a Friday 13th for both of us. Called HP, JOS and the London IT support team to solve this problem. And the only thing they can ever say was "Your laptop is out of warranty and we could only provide you with assistance through phone" after speaking to them for such a long time. Life without a PC is horrible and boring to the max. Although I was able to sit at the manager's desk, but I couldn't do much work. Sometimes I even wonder why would I even bothered to come work that day. Hopefully the replaced laptop would come soon.

Went to uni welcome tea session and experienced a cultural shock. Practically everyone was from JC and only some were from Poly. K, maybe there are more from poly but I couldn't see them. Perhaps it takes time to break the ice and be accustomed to such a environment. But it is of little wonder that I will feel apprehensive and paranoid at first. Anyway, went to watch What Happened In Vegas and it was a nice and enjoyable movie.

I received what I wanted and am elated and contented. I don't believe in the "you reap what you sowed" proverb because life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes evil people don't receive their punishment and good people don't receive their rewards. But god always closes a door and eventually gives you the key to a next door. It may take months or even years. If you continue in good karma perhaps life would be better in your next life. So..thank you very much.

Met Edmund twice this week and realised he's also working with CL at ocean tower. Although we were in the same course for 3 years but it's only now that I realise he stays quite near from me.

Sometimes I do hope that I wouldn't regret in the future for the decision I made. I feel lonely and worry of what kind of people I would meet. Then there are people who try to discourage and tell me tales and rumours of this and that. But if I choose to retreat and give up, I am sure I will receive a good lecture from my parents. Anyway, it's just of mixed feelings.

My heart nearly popped out and I was bewildered at my own physical strength. Talking about the fatigue test of metal..cool to the max. Went to basement to open the letter box of company. Then I was turning the letterbox key clockwise when I heard a slight "thud". Released my hand and the key head fell to the floor. The remaining of the key remained stuck so I jammed my hands into the lock and banged the box in a frantic attempt to pluck the key out. Called the management office immediately and they fixed the letterbox the following day. Unlike house's letterbox, companies are very particular on their punctuality of letters. Next time when a key is slightly twisted or deformed, please make a duplicate one asap.

A new dashing officer came into office this week. His cologne has a very subtle refreshing scent. He's married. Usually such people are either married or attached. Celebrated plenty colleague birthday this week and collected the cake at fullerton. The waiter actually disinfected the table and chair with ethanol before I sat down while waiting for the cake. Then I looked into the menu and browsed through its champagn, wine, liquor and food catergory. No prices stated and my stomach was growling. Another nice high class hotel with good services.

Had a f*ed up week and I was like a lost soul who didn't know what I was doing at times. Sometimes when I opened the main building door and was greeted by a bustling lunch time crowd, the fiery sun proved too dazzling for my eyes. The thought of retreating was tempting but I proceeded forward cuz the route backwards ain't so bright and worth looking back into. I realised that I have been too stubborn for a long time and lingered on broken hopes when there may be greener pastures ahead. Many people don't really understand me and they don't understand me perhaps cuz I failed to open up more. But there are some whom can sense it although I am not someone to tell them directly.

Nearly screwed my boss's business call early this week and I couldn't concentrate on my work. It was a painful process but dad always told me not to bring your worries to workplace and to other innocent people. So I tolerated and tried to filtered my moods. Then calls came on the eve of labour day. Had to hide in the toilet to chat cuz my table is at the prominent recept counter. Thanks to Jas and SQ mama, although had to entertain your calls with the backdrop of flushing toilet but at least you cared. And also..I felt much better after chatting with class people (you know who u are) on msn.

Although it was just a trivial matter but it subconsiously disturbed me for some unknown reasons. Then I saw a praying mantis and had a weird dream. I would fight for my dreams and in the process I may not be the person whom I previously was..it's also impossible for anyone's character to remain as sweet and angelic as before. There are principles in life to adhere to but I wouldn't possibly give up cuz I can no longer lost any more years of my youth and I don't want to dissapoint you again. Have made reservation for mother's day dinner and don't blame me if I am stingy and unsociable this month. Cuz I'm trying to save up. muahaha~ hope I can say tada, kimi wo aishiteru one day.